Mood. Dilemma. Mental Block. Reluctance.
On and on~

L is for the way you look at me..
O is for the only one i see..
V is very very, extraordinary..
E is even more than anyone you adore..
Love is all i can give to u,
Love is more than a game of 2.

seldom you see me in a lovey-dovey mood.. Was doing my maths tutorial in front of the TV when i heard this song featured as an a theme song..First heard this song frm Parent Trap.. Gosh, that was years ago.. Liked that song but nvr once bothered to check out the lyrics, even the singer or title.. The advertisement just provided me with just 6six lines of the lyrics... ya.. u can see frm above..
It makes me wonder.. there are so much things i wld like to do but just nvr get to accomplish them in the end.
Got drenched today.. Almost slipped and fall.. and tmr i ll be donating blood..
I just like to tell pple what happened to me yesterday.. what happened to me today... yea, like anybody is going to bother to listen..
So unappreciated but yet so willing..
Tmr i m going to donate blood..
Cant imagine 3months have passed.. i m a qualified blood donor again..

- 被雨淋过的今天-

Its been a month minus 2 days since i last blogged..
Its been a nice weekend.. and a start to another busy week..
A week = time flies = minimum life = mugging = dunno y the clock ticks so fast = travelling between hall and tampines to teach tuition = very sad life
Little things that happen in between can really cheer me up and i am glad that little things still do cheer me up =)
Like.. i ll still smile to myself when i listen to "Bcos u Live" being played.. Such a nice song.. It just cheers me up.. Yea, n i m listening to it now...
Spent last friday night at Orchard.. Its beeen so long since i last landed my foot on Orchard grounds. Alright, the last trip to Taka on 13 Sept doesnt count... Cos its just running an errand over to Fujitsu to get my Bluetooth adapter.. which i haven got much use.. cos my phone doesnt support Bluetooth.. Hehe... so yixin, zj, peter and i went to lido in hope of catching the andy lau movie: tong meng qi yuan.. but seats were sold out. Disappointed. Had a nice meal to compensate for that though.. Spaggedies.. =) Though my lasagne wasnt as nice as i expected it would be. But it was a nice night spent.. laughing away.. listening to them crap.. k lah, i think i crapped too..
Saturday was well spent also.. Thanks roomie, thanks joyce, thanks lijuan, thanks chongtang, thanks clement whom i haven seen for so long.. Without him calling me "genius" all the time, i tink my grades r slipping.. Call me genius, clement. =) Had another satisfying meal at ajisen.. Thanks for the PURPLE skirt! haha..
Can imagine how much weight i put on last weekend lor.. with the fish head steamboat dinner with my family just now.. But it was a bit disappointing cos apparently the standard of the food there dropped. Wasnt as nice as it was 1 yr ago? Things can even change within seconds, needless to say 1 yr... Thanks dad, thanks mum, thanks lishean for the pair of socks! =)
Haha.. i treated to u FIsh n Co during your birthday wor..haha
Thanks to weicong for the cookies..thanks pple who smsed me n prethanks to 2a pple and my dear neighbours bah.. =)
Happy birthday to myself =)

I slept from 3pm on Saturday to 10am on Sunday.
I think i am dead. I think i am crazy. If sleeping is escapism, there must be something bothering me too much.
I need to do my tutorials.

Only crazy people sleep at 5.30am and wake up at 8 plus for breakfast.. and only I am stupid enough to attend the electrical engineering lecture after breakfast at 10am.. Hmm.. having a bad throat and itchy nose now...
But i am anticipating lijuan's and yinjie's and joyce's stayover at RH! Hope it will be fun.. But i bet they will be watching that chinese show again.. N then i ll again not be interested in that show.. Sigh.. i told yinjie to bring lotsa food in tonight.. but then i cant eat them.. Throat pain pain..
I dont feel like doing school work related stuffs tonight.. but then again.. Yuxin is over at the other room reading her chinese.. and in du ren doing his phy online assignment..and i m slacking.(but then again.. i finished my phy online assignment last night! Yeah =) ) oh. and it was then that i realised that my fujitsu laptop doesnt come with Java.. Weird.. and no in built microphone...
Going for block comm and DnD interview later... So long nvr go for interviews liao..Reminds me of those scary interviews i went during April/May period.. DSTA, MOE, MOH, Medicine, Dentistry.. Oh man.. Stressful period..

-17/03= where stars are born . may the forces be balanced, may selective advantage be conferred, may the end point be reached-
I love this "quote" so much.. and it felt nice to be back with 1703 yesterday..
Everybody was complaining about uni life. how it forces us to be independent when we wan to slack.. The thing is.. we can slack but we cant afford to slack huh... And they said that it is more difficult to foster real friendships in university.. perhaps.. we r all grown-ups with our own circle of friends.. and it gets harder to build another circle of friends as time passes by.. Alot of new friends, alot of hi-bye friends..
I still feel quite happy with the new friends i made.. be it be in RH or frm engine oweek or my tutorial mates... Hmm.. afterall.. making new friends is not difficult... maintaining friendships takes that little bit more of effort..

-Itch for a movie. No nice ones recently though-

Just came back from maths tutorial half an hour ago.. Maths tutorial is one of my "better-enjoyed" tutorial.. Somehow i see shadows of Ms Wong in my maths tutor.. Both are very similar.. And ya, i like both their teaching styles..=)... Somehow i could pay attention every single second.. Unlike.. hmm... my electrical engineering tutor.. somehow i just couldnt recall his name now... Or rather, its v difficult to remember.. and i was late for the 1st EE tutorial i think... See.. a good start marks a good end. and whats the opposite? haha..

Just did a good deed.. Somehow i just got the feeling that my neighbour will just sleep past this tutorial.. BINGO!..He was really sleeping when i reached hall.. Haha.. yep. an sms did it.. and he's on the way to the class now i think.. Hmm.. attendance marked.. Thats how many percentage of the total mark huh??? Haha. 0.005 %??

Have been trying to know the correct pronounciation of this word: Infinitesimally.
Cos' it keeps appearing in the PC1431 physics lecture notes! Haha i know it doesnt matter how i pronounce that word.. but... haha just curious to know.. Cos i heard the lecturer pronounced it in a rather weird way..

Mid autumn festival is coming soon.. How i miss those days when we went to Lijuan's house to make the mooncakes for the class and for the tutors! Those were fun times.. and added colours to the stressful jc days.. Sigh.. now our timetables are so different.. its getting v hard to meet up one day to do such things.. And even i cannot make it.. Weekend days for me are spent sleeping at home.. So unproductive.. and weekend nights are meant for chiong-ing tutorials..Sigh.. had wanted to make some mooncakes one leh.. So fun..
Not forgetting making gingerbread cookies for christmas at esta's house and the teacher's day cookies at yaya house! and my 1st attempt at making pineapple tarts for CNY this yr!. Haha.. FUN. FUN. FUN and FUN.

Starting to get abit hungry after mentioning all the food stuffs.. Can u believe it.. my house doesnt have a single piece of mooncake.. I am so so so craving for it lah! I wan those with 4 egg yolks! Super shiok! And i remember chongtang's family dont take the egg yolks de! What a waste.. In my family... when there are mooncakes.. everybody fights for that precious egg yolk lor!.=)

RH's teatime is coming soon!.. Perhaps i shall go back reading my physics notes while waiting for my neighbours to come back from lessons and off we go for tea~ =).. Hungry...

-Seeing 1703 in another 5 hours time... Hope that "attendance"is good =) -
-Take care in UK, jess! -

Blank. I dont know how am i even going to complete this blog entry. I feel like i have to write something.. till i find out what is actually bothering me for the past few hours..
I dont feel tired physically.. cus i have been sleeping for the whole morning and theres only 2 tutorials today..
Am i feeling bad cos i skipped my SS lecture? Nope, i dont think so. I wouldnt have paid real attention if i was there physically even.
Am i feeling blank cos i have no idea whats going on in lecture? I feel real confused.. I really cant perk myself up to do the readings and understand all those new thereoms and stuffs... I feel so demoralised when i cant do simple tutorials.. I am still living in memories when jc stuffs are way much easier.. I dont like it when people can tell that i m stressed and tells me to relax. It makes me feel so useless... Alright, i know that somehow someday someone will tell me.. whey u 4As leh, u genius leh, u useless, i what?
The thing is, if i cant even handle such a transition frm JC to uni, what m i?
Time, i always give myself this excuse.
I seriously need to perk up, and find back that strength and motivation that have alwaes accompanied me since dunno when.. I must have lost it since last november.
Stoned. I dont know whats wrong with me. I need to sense some happiness. Not just a laugh, not just some lame jokes...
Its not glowing within me..

Thoughts at 3.41am...

Breathless.
Changes overwhelm. Fun and happiness dominate.
Transition.
Embracing a new course of life. Memories linger.

Its been ages..I wanna blog but dont even know how to organise my thoughts.
Was totally lost in touch with the outer world since i started Hall Orientation like more than 2 weeks ago. No tv and basically no internet cos i haven got my laptop yet. Kind of angry with the nus co-op notebook ctr.. Just because i missed a call from them and i got pushed back on the waiting list till like next wk? Hey, it sounds a bit impossible to be on standby beside my phone and answer it whenever somebody calls.. and they din say when they ll call.. But thats it, I shall wait. Sigh

After Hall orientation came Engine Oweek.. Felt totally shag and i had no feeling that school already started...Cus I ve been in school all day long.. Time to recollect all my feelings and set the correct mood. But its so difficult coz hall life is so busy. Alwaes buzzing with activities and stuffs.. and there are so many pple to interact to in hall.. The seniors are so nice pple and new friends that i have made.. =) They made nus more interesting than what i was imagining like abt 1 month ago. I tot i wld have no friends in engine and just beome a loner.. So yep, I starting to be a little afraid that I ll slack. Ok, slacking is fine but not too much.. I still wan my nice results =) To make it a nice consistency.=)

Realised i m a dummy.. either with nus' directions or with the dunno what IVLE or CORS.. haha realised i m being quite dependent.. Everything ask pple.. Cus i have no notebook for me to experiment and try out.. OK, those are excuses..

Came back frm ndp 05.. Had a nice time.. Seriously i dont mind crowds lor.. I like the feeling when the whole of the nation sort of get together for a single carnival n such... Like chingay, worldcup@padang, ndp, rag!,...so nice.. but the litter on the floor.. haha pity those clearing up.. Saw the ugly side of singaporeans also..The auntie beside me literally fell asleep when the emcees are trying so hard to cheer the crowd up and get the atmosphere going.. She fell asleep?! oh my.. sigh.. she just came aiming for the goodie bag i guess... (its no wonder the organising committee came up the idea of distributing couponsfor goodie bags(solely) this yr) but she woke up in time for the free poppies thou.. she took like more than 1.. oh man, she is not going to use it lor..and a couple of others grabbed the free sunshine kaya toast.. filled up a bag. I was like.. hmm... is there a need to? A bag filled with the buns? Maybe she's really hungry. That i dunno.
K, guess i sounded abit critical but yah other than tt, ndp was fun! Its the atmosphere tt matters.. I ve been to ndp so many times.. Its really the atmosphere tt counts, all the beautiful mass display are out of my mind after tonight.(sorry performers...)

I wanna watch charlie and the chocolate factory though my sis says she cant appreciate it. Oh, was watching monster-in-law with yuxin qt long ago and we r wow-ing over this charlie show and saying tt aug 4 is still a long way to go.. Da-dang.... its now 9 aug. Happy birthday singapore.. a belated one i guess.

Set my alarm at 9am but i only managed to get out of bed at 9.30am.. Because i heard...
"Ah ling ah, kitchen you(3) roti prata!"
Haha, this did it, and I pulled myself out of bed and brushed my teeth..cleansed my face.. checked out my sunburnt face (which i think its still bit red) and had my prata with HL milk..=) Nice breakfast.
Actually its because i have a tuition appointment at 10 thats y. I m not tt glutton k?

Had my tuition, Jiawei wasnt too naughty today perhaps its because its still morning and her brain aint too siao? At night, she really goes hyper and crazy. More tamed in the morning..tts y. Returned home at 11.30am, read some information about matriculation and Raffles hall and it got me all blurred and gong. I really have no idea how to bid for the modules. What about the round 0, round 1a, 1b, 1c, 2a,2b...... What are these? Then.....I was in la-la land.. I fell asleep again despite i just woke up like 3hrs ago? Haha.. Did i mention abt Wala Wala?

Went with my OG to Holland V friday night and this explains why I had tuition this morning instead. Was a pub, not a club(hengz), with live band..The band is quite nice but i guess we had the wrong position. With the speakers beside and smokers behind? Believe me with i say my hair, my bag, my clothes all smell of cigarette smoke when i reached home. Bad Position, i say. Played finger guessing and the forfeits are too crazy to be mentioned. Ultimate crazy, siaoz, n.. argh.

Realised i had 7missed calls frm home and decided to call it a night and took a cab home with andrea at about 12.30am.. Heard they crazi-ed until 1.45am? I really peifu their energy.. seems like I m getting old.. Saturday break camp, wed mambo@zouk, fri wala wala, sat dinner, sun baybeats@esplanade? Tmr i shall go to KC's birthday party, afterall i was informed of that earlier..

Woke up at 3.40pm and realised i had wanted to go Yinjie's house to take the cross stitch book and to swim. Called her home but no one answered the phone and no replies frm sms.. Wonder where has she gone to. And huizhen dint reply my sms today. Wonder if there's any problem about my phone?

Aborting my swimming plan, had wanted to start on a jogging plan @ 6.30pm.. It rained! Sian lor. And tomorrow i cant jog again.. coz of the birthday party and I m not sure if I ll be able to wake early for a jog? seems difficult. Haha.But I m into jogging thesedays.. If theres no tuition or anything if the evening, u will find me at the open field besidemy house.=) But they say only after jogging after 1/2hr will the fats get burnt away.. How? I dont jog for 1/2 hr.. once i complete my 2.5rounds i ll set for home.. But nevertheless, its good to set my heart pumping =)

Heard a nice song frm Wala Wala yesterday. Dont know whats its name. Quitestupid.
It goes.. its a 6 words-long song?n it keeps repeating.. Haha dumb.

Embracing a new course of life.

Photos!
I cant find the nxt 100!

Oh..INGO is happily at Zouk mambo-ing the night away.. Why do i have tuition tonight and work tomorrow? I love Goodrich, i love my colleagues but i also love to have fun... But I shall make up for it at KBOX tomorrow.. =)
Guess today is a stressful day @work.. Everyone seems so busy at work except me. I wish i could help them, but I guess they are too busy to even allocate part of their work to me.. Sometimes i really wonder, I really cant stand such a busy working life as something permanent. I guess i shant use the word BUSY. I meant busy, stressed, repetitive, boring..
Shirley broke down into tears today.. She really is too stressed.. Frm work, frm boss, frm her family, and frm her studies..Actually I really peifu her, if i were her, I wld have quitted.. Just stay at home kiao ka... Whats wrong with that.. When my girl is older le den chong chu jiang hu! Haha.. But really is the first time i see an adult cry in front of me.. I kept quiet Dint know what to say, I was more of stunned.. Luckliy we were not alone. The others did the talking..

It needs a lot of patience to coach my tuition girl. She is really getting out of hand.. Every minute I am coaxing her (not coaching!), and talking to her, catching her attention, and trying to keep her concentration on her work.. Breathless.

Once upon a time.. there is this something called BINGO.. Later the B fell down.. hurt himself.. this something became INGO!.. Kz. End of story.. Yah.. my grp frm union camp.. INGO! Abit lame ar, the introduction... But thats what I am feeling now... Lamers of the world unite...
I still remember the days.. ahsco-tjco gang pple were so lame.. we built a palace of lamers.. N i was the gong-nv aka royal servant of dont know who? Oh, those were the days.

I am so sianed-dao by the thought of going to work tomorrow morning..and I havent settled the cpf loan thingy! How? So whats the exact dateline actually? And, should i go for Mambo night after tuition tomorrow? I so so wanna go but I have work the next day also.. Y is everything coming to me at the same time.... Forever so packed.

Havent thought of giving what to my colleagues at Goodrich. They r so nice people, who have taken care of me for the past month I have been there.. And i have been getting so many treatsfrom my boss.. Nxt wk I ll be going Fish &Co! Yummy, and i m already aiming the Seafood Platter..I wanted to do a cross stitch forthem leh!.. But the precious moments alpha-boook is with yinjie! How!?! Maybe i should do something less time consuming...

I have serious craving for Subway Sandwiches NOW.. and I so so so so so do wanna go to Bangkok!
Oh, and i love the spirit frm UC 05.... tts something I shall treasure always.

oh another one of the baichi photos..  

hz's finger.. landed at the eyes.. while on the way to my head.. haha ah gogo! 

yaya look like the princess.. with my fingers and hz's fingers overlapping 

took this while waiting for hz n esta while they were at toilet.. twist it with gurney 

at some curry fish head restaurant...last night in penang for hz me n yaya 

yinjie n i...  

i like those plants at the back! 

i took this!