Last wkend..
Breathless..
Saturday morning began with me meeting yinjie at simei's phoon huat to settle the ingredients for Gingerbread!! Too bad lijuan's sick. Otherwise.. she will have enjoy the fun too.. Then went ntuc to buy ingredients for sunday bbq...
Saturday evening.. accompanied Yinjie to serene's church for some christmas celebration drama.. As usual there ll be exhortation.. something quite funny and "no-link" came from him:

The female's heart is like the autumn weather. Changes as they please and unpredictably.
The male's heart is like a needle buried in the deep sea. So hard to understand what they r thinking. U ll need yrs to make them speak. or perhaps nvr.

Met Sherwin Cheng. So last of him to give us a lift but narh, we want to shop! haha. congrats to his newborn baby.
So i bought the present for christmas exchange with my colleagues.

Went Yinjie's hse for a stayover. Haha..Felt comfortable with her parents and siblings and everythings. They made me feel welcome. Thanks~!

Sunday morning: Swam and TRIED to get a tan. But the sun isnt strong enough that day. Only managed to have 2 rosy cheeks that only sustained for 1 day.. Ha.

Sunday afternoon: My com is well again!

Sunday evening: Ah ma's birthday celebration @ East Coast Jumbo Seafood. Super duper full.

Sunday Night: 1703 BBQ! Met up and caught up with them.. hahaz.

Monday Morning: Woke up, brush my teeth... Decided not to go work today. Tada.

I'm lazy gal.
Thats y I m lazy to write down what actually happened for the past 2 days. Ups and downs..
My point is...
I seldom busy myself with more than 1 date per day. And I m glad that I have always stick to this principle (with exception for the last wkend. Breatheless) ... and.. I ll continue to do so. Haha.
Catching my breath. Costing abt 50 bucks(one day of work at goodrich)..

Another 3.6km. This is good.
Even better than my JC days.
Determination surpasses everything else..

I think i am falling sick.
sigh.
Rainbow Connection's last episode today.
You are attracted to someone because at that particular period of time, he or she protrays an image ideal to you. When time passes by, that image isnt somewhat you make it out to be initially. So, break up? Poor Yoyo... Its your wrong judgement, boy.. it just isnt right. But well, ive been negative comments abt Jianyi since beginning of the show....
Perhaps I am just biased.

Dizzy..

My colleague was talking abt her son today.
She says her son is requesting for a christmas party, inviting his uncles and aunties and grandparents..On that day, he wants to play a song on the piano, and asking my colleague to sing along. How cute.

Have i done something like this before?
How have i spent my christmas during my childhood years?
Photos show tt i have been to orchard road for the christmas lighthings.. Other than that.. nothing much.
Well well, christmas has nvr been a big deal in my family... including this year perhaps.

Came back from tuition just now..
My student was drawing christmas card for her grandma and her mum was wrapping up presents..
Somehow i think when i was young, i believed in the santa.(Someday I m going Finland... dream dream) Now i believe in the hopes u get from santa and appreciation for parents playing santa.
Theres a kid in everyone. If i wake up on 25 dec 2005 and see my sock full, hanging in front of my bed, that will make my day =) and i ll thank huever hu played my "santa".

Will i remember to hang a sock in frnt of my bed on christmas eve?
Even if i do.. theres no chimney in hdb flats. How!?! Or is there even a house with a chimney top in Singapore...

Listening to the 300 odd songs in my ipod repeatedly everyday at work. Getting bored and restless.
Noticed a few songs never failed to wake my from my daydreams or grab me back from lala land..
麥芽糖
遺失的美好
My Journey
Houki Boshi
Always with me
Shakepeare In Love
B'cos of U
Beautiful Soul
Yellow
My Happy Ending
Nobody's Home
知足
Every Morning, Sugar Ray
Reprise (Spirited Away)


My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did? Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit/stuff that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be


It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were through

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending


So whats my happy ending?

Feeling nostalgic.
This post is for joyce, yuxin and lijuan =)
Thanks for being such a great bunch of friends, got especially "triggered" when i saw the phrase "identity item" in lijuan's post.
Still remember our identical socks?
pink with snoopy prints.. frm ice lemon tee..
wanted to show off to everyone else in the co room abt the socks.. so cute we were. We still are :D
Still remember our tj green scrunchie..
yx din hav one.. Cus she doesnt keep long hair..
I m still keeping tt scrunchie thou it has lost its elasticity...
Still remember that half-heart pendant.. tt is suppose to change its colour with our mood?
Of cus its not tt magical.. but we r still willing to be amazed by it everytime we hold them in our hands n watch its color change.. Had once lost in somewhere.. hidden in a bag tt i din use for long.. But still, chance brought it back to me.
Went shopping with ljuan n yuxin yesterday at bugis.. then bought something for all the 4 of us again.. =) Nice. But tt shall be a surprise for joyce at the moment=)
Had almost forgotten about the winne the pooh keychain until yuxin reminded me..
Yeah, were shopping at Tampines Mall one day after exams and bought the horoscope winne the pooh plushie key chain..Haha.. still remembered that we tot it would be ex.. When it turned out to be only 2.90, each of us got one...

[edits] joyce says.... theres still one more metallic mechanical pencil. Blue for me n her.. Pink, as usual, for lijuan.. yuxin din have one... she wasnt with us tt day after exams i remember. N it was ex, yet not durable

[edits]joyce says again.. there still a bracelet tt she bought for us during yr 1 exams for good luck =) i got a pink one this time..

one more.. a badge for our bags...!.. attitude sia.. N they got one tt fits everybody just nice =) they refers to joyce n lijuan..

Thanks for being such a nice bunch of friends once again..
One thing that i learnt from hall stay.. Is to show appreciation to your wonderfuk friends, which i did minimal for my past 18 years i guess..
You guys are the ones i think of when i m sad, ones hu i can grumble to about things.. the ones i just wear what ever i like when i meet u guys for an outing.. =)
Silly me. I m touched by those memories.

We rock. We stone.

Im holding a piece of goreng pisang in my left hand now.
I used to like these from the Bedok interchange stall. Young memories.
But now,i feel so sinful eating these. My jog on thursday has gone to a waste.
Well well..

Turning a deaf ear to things..
Throughout the years, i have learnt that there are indeed times when things actually get better (or at least u bother yourself with less troubles) when you turn a deaf ear to certain things.
This is NOT escapism.
This is just a way of FACING things that are definitely beyond your control, things that dont go the logical way, things that just happen the way they are and u have not a single idea why...
This is an art to master..
To actually turn a deaf ear to things that happen to pple and things so dear around you.
But.. to turn a deaf ear doesnt mean I dont care.
Ok, perhaps its all pretendence that I dont bother... Ok, i really do care.

Its tiring to think so much. Its tiring.

Reading another ZXX book thesedays.. Things are too idealistic in the book. Its almost impossible to happen in real life. Perhaps its the fun in matching things that happen to me in real life with the plot in her books that keeps me wanting to read on. Its just assurance, perhaps, that you still can find idealities that happens in stories, in our lives.

Perhaps thats why the death of Cedric Diggory in Goblet of Fire bothered me so much. Seldom do i react so much to a movie. Harry Potter.. Its supposed to be magical.. supposed to be a story of perfection where victory belongs to the good.. Death, spoils the perfect picture..

: No 2 days are the same. Tomorrow can replace today:
: No 2 persons are the same. Nobody can replace anyone:

I'm missing something.