Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Chinese New Year!
Had myself occupied with eating all the new yr goodies, went my grandma hse and stoning in frnt of the TV. N.. assignments. Woah.
Rushing my CTW assignment now and shall be going back to hall a few hours later..
Lost money at Junyang's house and now he owes all of us a meal! He earned like 50++ bucks larh. OMG. Had Daidee League at Jovin's hse just now and now i m back at home to chiong CTW assigment. ..
Sian.
When they r at ZhengQuan's house now.. or perhaps, Yinjie' house to earn more money.. Haha..
3 more days to Chingay. Excited. Wonder where our seats are located.. Joyce said it once but i m quite forgetful yah. Haha =)
Excited as if i m performing..
Haha...
YuenLing is going running later. Good girl =)

Friday, January 27, 2006

What do u collect?
Memories.

Had no idea why i deleted them. Once so dear. Once so treasured. Once an accidental "Delete All" hurt so much. And i click on it today. On purpose. N now alittle pinch is felt.
Empty now, ready to be refilled.
Takes time.

Things can be so coincidental.
Was talking to kel in my room today about i-dunno-what-crap, and he mentioned his friend BaoLai who apparently changed much from primary school days..
And today went Peter's blog to check out his SC Marathon photo which doesnt really look like him indeed, click on the "Comments" and saw the name BaoLai. Haha.. wonder if they are the same person.
But i reckon, they are.
Ha, things can be so coincidental i say.

Realised i keep saying things that i dont wish to hear it frm other pple. Its often when i ponder abt the words later in the night that i realised that i wont like to hear them. They arent criticism, they arent vulgarities, they arent mocks, they arent hyprocritical... but its just the art of speaking tt i lack. Shall work on it.. Is there such a thing as.. Chinese New Year ResolutioN?
What do u collect?
Memories.

Had no idea why i deleted them. Once so dear. Once so treasured. Once an accidental "Delete All" hurt so much. And i click on it today. On purpose. N now alittle pinch is felt.
Empty now, ready to be refilled.
Takes time.

Things can be so coincidental.
Was talking to kel in my room today about i-dunno-what-crap, and he mentioned his friend BaoLai who apparently changed much from primary school days..
And today went Peter's blog to check out his SC Marathon photo which doesnt really look like him indeed, click on the "Comments" and saw the name BaoLai. Haha.. wonder if they are the same person.
But i reckon, they are.
Ha, things can be so coincidental i say.

Realised i keep saying things that i dont wish to hear it frm other pple. Its often when i ponder abt the words later in the night that i realised that i wont like to hear them. They arent criticism, they arent vulgarities, they arent mocks, they arent hyprocritical... but its just the art of speaking tt i lack. Shall work on it.. Is there such a thing as.. Chinese New Year ResolutioN?
certain songs need to grow on me.
霍元甲。Nice first 42 secs.. esp 28th second onwards!
Another "oriental" song on the market. Somehow, dont really enjoy this genre. Chink-out
But perhaps, it ll grow on me.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Black n white.
To wash away colours and fill them much with emotions so dear.
Matchstick n the box.
To keep the ignition within.
Matchstick n the girl.
To the very last moment.

Escalate.

Chingay on 4th feb made me strangely happy. Quoting Yuxin, strangely happy..
Indulging in my sheer happiness again.
Seems like my matchstick isnt working tt well, owells. tts at the back of my mind, doesnt matter for now.
Chingay, perhaps cos I m out with the crowd again.. Tts y i enjoy ndp parade, tts y i enjoy big walk. It feels like the whole world is out with me tt moment.
Crowds doesnt matter, for i m with them. Its not like im alone, isolated, for which is my biggest fear.
Yet i contradict myself when i enjoy certain moments of solitude and yeah, serene.

i'm missing some whom i haven seen for long. jumping at chances to meet them all over in nus for lunch. heys, i knocked on joyce's door today.
heys, who's door isnt locked?

Now tt tjco alumni has confirmed taking part in tjco concert 2006, i ve decided nt to participate.. heys, perhaps it ll be just as nice watching them on stage. its been 4 yrs.. since i last watched tjco on stage.. frm the audience seats... not to mention the syf, which was so nice, and earned my grams worth of adrenaline. so do u measure hormones by grams or ml or mg? or mg/cm^3 of blood? Nvr crossed my mind to wonder abt this till now. Hehz.
Kays,May it shall be. Esplanade or SCH shall it be?

into green. green gives a new lease of life to the dull.
green freshes.
green awakens.
green perks up.
go green.
but green also comes with jealously. oops.

into purple. purple gives a dilemma btwn red n blue.
purple magics.
purple fantasizes.
purple royals me.
go purple.
but purple also comes with knocks. oops.

::purple n green me::

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

I'm getting up at 7am to run tmr. Good girl =)

Monday, January 23, 2006

:: picture of u in my mind::
I refused to get myself down to school work even after distributing flyers door-to-door to EH and TH. I refused to get myself down to school work even after finish reading Memoris of A Geisha. So.. yes i refused and thus landed myself in the kitchen. D




yes.. butter! $2.55 per 250gram piece. So ex eh.


Never thought that mik powder is one of the ingredient, did you? Nah, i dont have fernleaf, no dumex, no nespray, no promil with rich DHA, but i do have Omega Plus which is supposed to be good for.. I dont know what.
Plain flour. Prima! Prima Deli.. My dad says.. SIA uses Prima flour for their pastries.. Is this the best brand in town?
So, here comes the sifting.. I dont like this process at home. Y cant I have a bigger sift? It takes ages...
Hey, i washed my hands. Haha.. Mixing the butter in with the flour until they represent bread crumbs.. Took me quite long with the kneading till my left arm feels alittle strained now..
3 eggs yolks, 2 egg-whites. (Thats my sis's fingers)
Pineapple. Finally have a clue to what I'm doing.. But guess you guys have already guessed it before u reach this picture. Cos i have been saying saying saying and finally i m doing=)
Kept reminding us of Ding Tai Feng while doing this. Too bad, we have no electronic mass balance to weigh each ball.. Hmm.. the scale is in the mind.
First batch, before into the oven.
Hot!Then i decided to have a variety of shapes... This looks prettier hor? But i like the uglier one. =) Texture-wise i mean.

Yeah! Courtesy of my sis, theres a face popping out of nowhere. And i say it reminds me of Adriano. Haha. Not mah?

I had fun. I also had.

So this is a prelude, that is, if u guys have the chance and luck to taste them. D.

:: I had ::

Saturday, January 21, 2006

YuenLing spent her very first weekend at home today in year 2006.
Recieved Wendy's sms that reminds me that I have to return her Memoirs of A Geisha on Monday. And there i was still at pg 100++ of a 434-page book..
Okie, so i diligently slacked at home and finish the book.. Its amazing how does diligent and slack form a single description...
5.30pm -- YuenLing plans that she shall go for a run later at 6. D. D represents a great smile here.
5.45pm -- YuenLing hears thunder. Carries on reading her book.
6.15pm -- Yeah! Rain has stopped and she prepares herself for the run. Hair is as difficult to tie as usual..
6.45pm -- Out of the house!

No one playing soccer today. No indian family strolling today.
I was running alone.
Guess i started with the wrong pace.. Y? I couldnt maintain the 3.6km liao! So disappointed with myself when i stopped. Argh! Perhaps, I m lazy.. Perhaps, I am irritated with the puddles of water that is going to dirty my shoes. Perhaps, I m bored with nothing to see while running. Perhaps, I dont have much to think today.
Or perhaps, I dont have much troubles to leave behind me today.
I felt happiness within me today though nothing happened. Sheer happiness.
Approximately 30 more mins to the end of the day. I hope this feeling retains, at least for today.

I wan to watch Memoirs of Geisha. Now that I have read it, all the more i am curious to see for myself what is being described in the book. The kimono, whats the obi, whats a split-peach hair wig, whats the .... Alot of things that i cant picture for myself.. I hope to see it in the movie.I hope that it wun disappoint me and i hope that i wun disappoint myself by not watching it in the end.

Updated my passbook today. Cant believe my expenditure had been so large for the past few weeks. Eeeks.Whatever happened to the 50-dollar note i drew on Thursday..? What's left behind in my wallet? (I wan you to imagine a 50-dollar note with wings flying away..)

Thursday, January 19, 2006

I itch to play my zhongruan once again..
Its there standing at the corner of my study room.
In its black casing all zipped up.
Dust is piling up!
But yet the feeling of picking it up again and gives me a fear of concerts and its busy schedule!
TJCCO concert is drawing near once again.. Okie, not really near.. but its in abt 4mths time.

Girls.. when are you all free for an outing? This sunday? Lets go have dinner together.. The blk 85 outing that lijuan suggested impromptu dint get executed in the end... Can we fulfil it soon. The Bak Chor Mee... I wanna eat!
Kay, I'm suffering from the lack-of-good-food syndrome now.. Raffles Hall food, far from good, makes me no mood.
Lunch = Sunshine Multi-Grain Bread that makes me dread. But I shall carry on.
So i shall very much appreciate if we are going block 85 this sunday!
Lijuan! Joyce! Yuxin! Read this entry and msg me asap!..

::On low glucose count today::

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Perhaps a theatre major isnt quite wrong.
I play my life quite well. Played.
Jumps. Jumping. Jumped.
Jumping with love. Jumped with joy.
No, YuenLing jumped because she was caught unaware. Jumping spider. Cos she gan chiong and dont know what to do.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Had my run today.
Same distance same route. With a different purpose today.
Alot was going through my mind as i ran..

Saw guys playing soccer at the field that i ran past.. So nice.. I dont know what am i jealous of but its just ... "wah. they are playing soccer leh. got friends.. y am i running alone." I'm sick of going shopping... I'm sick of going gatherings for the sake of going gatherings.. I'm sick of movie trips..
But i dont know who to call.. When i wan a swim, when i wan a jog, when i wan to go Wild Wild Wet.
And now.. I feel like going Matritchie Treetop Walk.. (i know i got the spelling wrong.) .. In this weather... No... but even if the weather turns better... I have no idea who to jio. No name just fits into: Today, ____,____,___and I went for the treetop walk. Its so fun!.
Grey matters.

Saw an indian family taking a stroll.. They were walking so slow that during my 2nd round.. they were no more than 200 metres from where i first saw them. They sure are enjoying their family-moment. Its been ages since the whole family exercised together.. I remember i once cycled to Bedok Reservoir then Bedok Park with my family when i was back at my old house.. Then got sun-burnt like mad. Feeling nostalgic.

My new hairstyle is big hindrance to my running... Fringe keep bouncing at my forehead.. Side burns that i cant tie properly just kept hitting on my ears as i ran..kept hearing wind for every step i took.. creating a false illusion that i was actually running tt fast. But nah, i said it was an illusion. Yah, by the last km i was too irritated by the sound that I begin to run very fast to reach the ending point. Had an urge to vomit when i stop.. which nvr happened before.. Concluded that i should nvr run when i m sad. The bottled-up feelings doesnt go with the wind, doesnt get left behind the path as u run.. They just make me feel like vomiting when everything ends..
Perhaps.. they are left behind the path when i ran.. but i pick them up again on my 2nd round.. releases them again on my 3rd and pick them again on my4th.
Unless... i run a 5th round nxt time. It takes an extra effort. that will be 4.8 km . OMG.
It takes an effort to forget whats bothering too.

I need new elements in my life to strengthen my grip for i think i m losing what YuenLing should be. What does Yuenling think Yuenling should be?

::Grey matters::
She is thinking again.

Friday, January 13, 2006

I am pissed because i take it to heart.
I am happy because you make my day.
I laugh because you make me happy.
I stone because I am sian and dont even bother to try to lift my spirits up.
I talk because I want to share.
I take the initiative because I bother.
I complain because I wan people to tell me its alright.
I question because I am unsure.
I keep quiet because there are times when i dont seem important.

I kept quiet today. I smiled today. I was pissed today. I complained today. I stoned today.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!

Art

83%

Theater

83%

Dance

75%

Linguistics

67%

Engineering

58%

Journalism

58%

Mathematics

50%

English

50%

Philosophy

42%

Chemistry

42%

Sociology

42%

Biology

33%

Anthropology

25%

Psychology

8%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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hehs. this is so inaccurate.
Yuxin and Xiaoli got theirs right.
This is inaccurate or am i just not on the correct path of my life.
But a Theatre Studies Major is a definite no-no for me.
Theatre Studies? YuenLing? Drama? Linguistics? No Link.
Science? Biology? YuenLing? Link.
Wells, i m on my engineering path now. So whats there to say.

Sometimes i wonder? Would I be in FASS now if i had chose History as my arts subject during my Sec 2 streaming? Had i not followed the crowd of my class, I may be jolly well be a History major now... Looking at the cert frm sec 2 saying first in history of the cohort, and looking at the C+ from my SS on my sem 1 results slip. What a joke. No one shall dwell in his or her past.

All i can say. I m not what the quiz says.
I cant even play my life well, needless to say acts on the drama stage.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Lost someone today...
Goodbye.
And so I m recuperating at home. Cancelled the shopping trip with Yuxin last minute (hope she doesnt mind)..
But my mind is still on tt Exodus pair. Haha.
Da Chang Jin: Episode 52. 18 to go. Before school reopens. Sounds abit impossible.

I was too groggy yesterday to blog about what happened on new year's eve..
Went with 2a to marina sq for dinner followed by the countdown at esplanade's bay...
Had Changing Appetites Parmesan Fish N Chips for dinner. Sin! Was so full that i skipped breakfast and lunch the next day..

Let me see who came.. Steven, Chung Pong, ZhengQuan, Su Kee, Tat Chin, Jovin, ZhengWei, YinJie, Andrea, Geoky and Me! Haha..First time having countdown with them when i had known them for like... erm... 7 years!?

Haha Geoky came with such a punk attire! What a punk hairstyle!Haha...thematic dressing.. This is not something i see from my NUS friends around me... Some go for class, some go for PINK!, some go for the trend.. And i go for just Mix and Match lor..
Okie, perhaps its really the kind of friends you mix frequently with..

Oh and i cant believe Jovin grew taller again. 1.83m liao.. Maybe the next time i see him, he ll be 1.9m liao?

So after the heavy dinner.. went by the river to walk walk.. Whats tt place called? No idea.
Crowds!
Then we moved onto the highway where we took some photos, courtesy of yinjie! Finally settled at merlion's park.. (time: 9.30pm 2.5hrs more to go to New Year).
Really nothing to do while waiting for time to pass.. At about 10 plus, heard somebody said, this must be the most boring 2 hrs in her life.
I smiled to myself.
I dont agree.
Boring times spent with friends aint boring.

Din even manage to countdown( I mean saying 3....2....1) and fireworks were up in the sky. Fireworks galore, pretty they were, and worth the wait =)

Went over to Steven's hse after everything.. Yah all the asshole daideeing and talking crap and rubbish. Cant believe they can stay so long at the mahjong table and i cant believe playing asshole daidee and keep us high through the night.. Amazed **

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Down with sickness.
Haven been taking good care of myself... Curry puffs for my sore throat. Manager's treat @ Esmiridas with the kebabs and mediterranean food. Tjco's gathering at marina bay for steamboat. and then new year's eve spent with 2a people without sleeping and spending the whole night playing asshole dai dee...
So.. sore throat becomes cough and flu. Sians. Hate flu.
And i realise a day without sleep and food frm 9pm to 4pm to the nxt day causes a weight fluctuation of -ve3kg. Abit exaggerating but thats what my weighing scale tells.
Argh. What a way to start a brand new year. Its such a blessing that I dont start my academic term this tuesday... Otherwise.. what a year to start a new sem.

Lethargic.

Had a weird dream today.. Y y? Too much jealousy.. I cant help but feel this way.

Groggy.