*shakes head and sigh*

yours truly is craving for 鱼片米粉！ when tj's seem fairly inaccessible because its now school holidays.. im thinking the biz stall may suffice :)
I din know oyster omelette can be served oysterless. But at least thats what i read frm minhui's blog cus jianxiang ordered it. Maybe I shall try it someday. *shakes head and sigh* (im being reminded of huimin here... lol)

I have alot of things to do on the "someday" which may or may not come.

And no! I haven chop my hair off yet..no time no time *shakes head and sigh*

okies backs to my signals and i *shake head and sigh*

who m i kiddin?

who am i kidding when i say im taking a break from blogging because i wan to refrain it from becoming an addiction -> so that i ll have more time for my books.

在大头芬的世界， 因为思绪太多，如果不把它们都写下来，头脑会爆炸。
I think im like 大头芬 too.

Im stubborn. I dint wan to go against what ive said in my previous entry. And so i came up with a word document entitled: what happened. This is to prevent my brain from exploding. Each day... By filtering the sad thoughts, I feel that Im made a happier person. By sharing my joy, I feel that Im made a blessed person.

26/10/2006

I wish of things to happen. At the same time, how I wish certain things dint happen.
People lose things and regret having taken it for granted. This time, I dint take it for granted yet I lost it somehow.

27/10/2006

YuenLing is a happy girl today. I love today.

29/10/2006

Like I always do after watching “Say I do”, I felt so sweetened after hearing the groom’s love declaration for the bride. It just feels so xing fu to march in on the red carpet with your loved one with well wishes from everyone albeit the 4 inch heels and heavy gown and tight schedule to keep to. Omg.. and the speech the groom made during the dinner in front of everybody.. So sweeeeet!
Whats meant to be really is meant to be.

..About it, I have decided to look at it from a broader angle.
I ve been trying to let it affect me in the least magnitude as possible.
Told u im trying.

slap me if this is no longer the latest post before 30/10/2006

I have no idea why Im blogging so excessively lately.

I have decided to welcome the next post with a new haircut; I can stand long hair no longer.
I have decided to get my butt off my bed/sofa/chair/whatever and get a jog later.
I have decided not to use the haze as an excuse.
I have decided to take the stairs more frequently and really did remember when I returned from tuiton just now.


so, have i or have i not decided then.

For reasons i shall not bare.

"Let us not love in words or tongue but in deed and truth."

Anyone who has peered into my JC's notebook would have known I have got quotes written all-over, some self-invented, some from renowned philosophers and they reflect the very feeling i was having when i wrote them.
I took a look at them jus now when i was packing my drawer and chanced upon the notebook.
Some i recall the very emotions when i wrote them down and some I had totally forgotten what triggered me to pen them down.

:: if freedom has no restraints and embrace everything then it risks being tyranny, since logically it must include tyranny among the things it embraces ::

some words before starting sc1101 webcast.

On a day without lessons, i resolve to do all my tutorials for the coming week and catch up with what Ive been lagging.. like.. SIGNALS! Its signalling to me that I ve been leaving it behind too much... But i end up doing pretty nothing much in the day.. Very guilty.

I haven even been watching Goong on youtube that I refuse to do work. (yuxin..... )
I haven even been shopping for how many skirts how many 3/4 pants aka retail therapy (lijuan..)
I haven even been sick until gooong gooong (bee....tc)
I haven even been...... ( what r u busy with lately ah, joyce? ur blog seems to be providing me with no clues.. except Deathnote with a capital F.. and u nvr ask me along! hmph!)

What have i been doing? Shrugs.
I ve been at my physio textbook for hours and studying how does one regulate urine concentration and volume.. then I begin to feel very hungry.. A search in the kitchen found me Anlene Strawberry Yoghurt Drink.. and i remembered i had Strawberry Pockey in my bag! *strawberrified* :)

Speaking of Anlene and its advertising hype about osteoporeosis prevention.. I saw a program on CNA that day while channel surfing and one program got me quite interested.. High intake of vitamin A actually increases the chances of fracturing and osteoporeosis.. That is no matter how much phosphate, Calcium, Vitamin D you take to prevent osteoporeosis, high intake of Vit A just cancels all the benefits of those.
Nvr thought that a vitamin can actually be harmful right?

三件事

bee.. i finally added u in my "links" section. Finally hor? haha..
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I should be rejoicing that this is a very long wkend for me when I ve no lessons on Monday and Tuesday is a PH.. but I think I ll jus end up spending this whole wkend with my schwork.
Part of me wants to go gaigai on Monday but part of me says: u need to study!
xl: we can go walkwalk cum study!
[yuenling]: walkwalk cum study is impossible to achieve! when walk i tink of study when study i ll think of walk.
but we reached a decision in the end! We r going to gaigai!

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I think its time to make use of this long wkend to do some research on SEP and the Nus SEP awards before proceeding to my parents with some logical reasoning since the initial reply was a "no".
So far in my 20yrs of life.. such "reasoning session" has worked if I wan it badly enough.
Do i wan it badly enough or will I just make do with a "no" ?
But I ve got enough savings for this SEP trip. Again, do i wan it badly enough?
Do i wan it badly enough to reach a consensus btwn my dad and i that we will each bear half of the cost? or even bearing it myself?
I m tearing my thinking apart.. and i ve got until 1 Nov, only, to mend it up.

my reward

my tuition kid said this to me just now : a smile is always better than a frown.
She said I'd been frowning for the past few times i ve been with her so she did all kinds of stunt to make me laugh together with her.
And when i say stunt. Really stunt.
She ll jump on her bed and sing me my favourite song from the Disney's High School Musical soundtrack.
She ll use her hp and record what i said without me knowing and then suddenly play it and left me in laughs and shock.
She drew me lots of drawing which i kept in my tuition file.
Despite all the testing of my patience and mischief during lessons, shes just a sweet lil girl.

n so i say a smile is always better than a frown.
jus remind me again when u see me frowning..
y do little kids just show what they want what they feel so blatantly? i mean, its good.

i say i ll be rewarded if i survived this wk right. I think i ve just been rewarded by the kid. :)

Whats happening?
1) Surviving :)
2) Surviving :(
3) Survived :)
4) Dead :(

2..
People jus tend to wallow in self-pity sometimes.

collecting inspirations as i write

Will October just pass me by without me realising it? I dont know. Children's day seem so near yet so far and exams seem to be round the corner in approximately 1 month.

Sociology terms have been bugging for me for past 2 days ever since that 圣旨 was realised at 6pm. Nothing much was done on Saturday and in fact nothing much = introduction. Or rather i was collecting inspirations. Do you believe me when i say i dreamt about how the social attainment model and the functionalist theory of stratification finally make sense to me while i was napping yesterday ( yes again on my bed without pillow, with my specs on and notes beside me.. this has been my sleeping position for many days alr) and i actually woke up to take that down on some piece of paper beside me and continued back to sleep. And now.. I am stuck with figuring how i should use Symbolic Interactionist theory to critically evaluate the functionalists' point of view. But all is great because I am left with only 3/4 of a page to finishing.

I shall be greatly rewarded if i survive all these.

Abracadabra! AlaAliBaba!

So rare that my mum returned home from grocery shopping with junk food.

This is so cute that I couldnt resist taking time off my soci essay and took a picture of it, with it.

The conventional Maggie Mee shrunk for about 3 times before reaching the Mamee Mee stage and now it has shrunken for about 30 times at least before reaching this size. Same size as thumb lor.. and u guys know, my thumb isnt big at all lor. Haha

check out the date.

Just when I was wondering why everything just doesnt seem to be right today, i saw my friend's msn nick. So, its Friday the 13th today.

Woke up late for school today. I have no idea i snoozed my alarm clock frm 7.30am all the way to 8.15am! Heng I wasnt late for more than 15 mins for my Soci tutorial.. Otherwise the tutor wont will be accepting my assignment.

Sigh. I got a wrong definition of "Social Imagination" in my last assignment and all the 300 words i wrote turned to crap. C+ leh. From B+ drop to C+ abit drastic but I've S/Ued it anyway. Still, was feeling abit disappointed to see a big C+. So the tutor had this "this-dear-girl-did-quite-badly-for-her-assignment-i-must-'takecare'-of-her-look" when he returned my paper. So throughout the tutorial, he was really taking care of me making sure i wasnt drifting off by asking for my opinions and answers throughout. Stressed.

Fluid mechanics wasnt too well either. But i sort of expected it already. So wasnt too big a blow.

I THOUGHT the day would end well cos I went down specially from engg to sci to take a look at my physio result and it turned out to be quite well done.

But i went home to see a locked door and nobody was home! Having forgotten to bring to keys, I ve to drag my tired body to find my dad who was jogging and get the keys from him. And he just told me that I din press the "start" button of the rice cooker even though I already switched on the main power. So I have to rush off to tuition with an empty stomach now. Ah, this all not good.

Oh and if in any case that anyone is a lover of Sociology and is itchy to write a 1200words essay which is given 2.5 days to complete starting from today 6pm. I shall attempt to seek help
here:

How does the status attainment model of social mobility fit into the functionalist theory of stratification? Critically evaluate the status attainment model and the functionalist theory of stratification from the perspective of conflict, feminist and symbolic interactionist theories.

好事成双， 坏事成堆

n i feel like it now. thou abit lag.

Its so rare-rare-rare to be home on a Wednesday afternoon. No. I din skip school. I just had an absolutely short day in school.

08102006
Yea. Celebrated my birthday with my yx,lj,joyce,bee,ct as usual... at Tampines. Lol.. Realised we celebrated everyone's birthday at our home grnd, perhaps except for Joyce but Changi Airport isnt too far either. So i suggested nxt stop shall be at the Expo.. I mean they claim to have a wide variety of restaurants there right?? Went to this Jap restaurant at Tampines Swimming Complex. Details see Joyce's or Yuxin's blog.. Lol.. zzz.Lazy.zzz.
But thats out of da point cus the point is to thank em for spending 1 lazy afternoon together despite all of us hav to rush for lab rpt or some sort of assignment.

09102006
Mountain tortoise Yuenling visits ChompChomp for the first time.. yea :)
Thx xl,yix,pete,zj for bringing me there..
And as usual I m too lazy for the details.. well well maybe except for the cakes from moon.
Yix said tt the birthday gal alwaes need to do silly stunts on her birthday which i refused.. And i suddenly recalled... So what did i "performed" for them last yr? Ah. Yah. Bursting of a total of 19 balloons in hall..

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Had my birthday cake as a present frm mum. She says this is the last yr she is getting me a birthday cake cus nxt yr is 21 yrs old and she wanna change style to ang pow. Lidat also can.. I am so used to having a cake on my birthday for the past 20 years.

Thanks for all the sms-es and alot of people who wouldnt have known it was my birthday until they saw friendster. Oh and an expensive sms from Canada from Rebecca! Was quite shock when i saw her sms man. She used be to a reader of this blog but I wonder if she continued... hope she sees this : Thank you Rebecca!
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And I think i shall pre-thank alex.. cus i alr know the present is waiting for me.. whee ~Haha. I wonder when I ll be free to meet up. And I shall get u your 21st bday present on that day k? I need u to tell me what u wan!! Otherwise I ll have no idea.

I dont like to do a soci reflection on articles tt are interesting to read but difficult to reflect and write while linking sociological concepts.

Sighs. Seemingly interesting stuff just gets boring when its linked with mandatory readings and write-ups.

They always say: "just crap la."

Somehow, I cant crap tonight.

But what did i just did?

Owells. Somehow i feel that i owe this blog or rather myself,an entry regarding my birthday. Till i feel like it bah.

This was nice. Its like: think about it and u ll start salivating. Lol.

i think im blogging abit too much but i get very bored from doin a lab report for 6hours. But now its completed :)

Anyway, i got a shock again.

The condominiums in Pasir Ris that used to be visible from my kitchen window has vanished into thin air!

(and i realise i din adjust the date settings for my camera)

...

i have no idea why my parents insisted on going joggin in this kind of weather. my sis hav no idea too..

when u r too bored frm work and tired and hv been deprived of sleep for v long... sleep really isnt an option! u just HAVE to sleep. *tsk.

I looked out of my window and got a shock.

I din give a damn about the haze haunting Singapore a couple of years back when I was in p5. All I knew was that it gave us an excuse to stay away from lessons.
I look around us these few days and the haze made me sad. I feel sad for the no longer fresh air. I feel sad for our respiratory tract and the animals' too. I feel sad for the plants and everything else that is being affected by it. Engine used to have nice scenaries at particular spots around the faculty and now as I travel from one tutorial/lecture to another, I dont even get to see that afar to appreciate the beauty of those sceneries. Big Sigh.
Its making alot of people fall sick and makes it a NoNo to have outdoor activities -i think. Cos I see no point in compromising our health.

About the shock I got when I looked out from my window just now: The haze condition got worse tonight! The kids, alot of them, were gathering at the playground beside my flat and are playing with sparklers, candles... and haha burning leaves burning whatever they can find with their candle fire.. Lol cus i used to do that. I can understand the fun from playing with those. I am not telling them: Hey kids, the haze condition is getting so bad, can you dont play with those?
I am only thinking: Sigh the haze makes me sad.

When I see the clear sun again. I shall sing: Its a sunny yellow banana day!
Hmm, we have taken the nice fresh air in Singapore for granted, havent we?

Its Mid-Autumn Festival today. I was reminded of some things long long time ago.
Remember sunplaza park with bee,zhiqin,joyce,clement.. Met up for consecutive 3yrs on this day at our fav sunplaza park for some candle-playing, sparkles-lighting... I ve also forgotten how did all these stopped. Getting all grownup and busy with all the committments and especially exams that ALWAYS tend to fall on the eve or either on the day of an exam.

I was reminded of us making mooncakes for the teachers and 1703.

I was reminded of my dad's winning lantern masterpiece when I took part in some RC Mid-Autumn Festival celebration.

Its sometimes just so nice to go through the archives at the back of your mind once in a while and remind yourself that those nice stuff actually took place.

Just had an intellectual msn chat with a grp of BIE people whom I dont usually interact with in real life.
And i found a pro-ster.
Power of online MCQ assignments: Brings people clickin u on msn who usually doesnt. (here comes one more pop-up window... haha..)

Ah.. really leh 1 more pop-up window frm kelvin.

OMG! i m beginning to get the leave-things-behind syndrome. textbooks, library books and now... LAPTOP!~
Left my laptop in science canteen and went to my physio forgetting all about it!
Until the very last minute of the test then i realised it and heng its still at the place where i left it.

I MUST NOT BE SO FORGETFUL AND CARELESS NXT TIME.

duet fever

i came online specially to find these songs cus i keep hearin them play in my head since i first heard them...

对你有感觉 - 江美琪 ，光良
天天夜夜 - FIR
I Still Believe - Vivian, 曹格

：）nice


adds: eeks. i just vomited papaya that i ate after dinner. gross. but im not feeling sick or anyting. shrugs, but i sense another comin. GROSS.

*sniff *sniff

doesnt feel too good.
to see it in a better way, at least i din catch it durin the hols which might hav meant i cldnt go cycling shopping bla bla bla.


- the girls who went for the cycling :)

- haha this is to haolian my cycling cum photo-taking skills. i took this single handedly while cycling still k... n she was cycling too.. - fidgety effect explained.