A tinge of: 1) anger 2) wad-ever lor 3) disbelief 4) sianed-ed

About a week ago, my dad came home from work, with a stack of letters from our letterbox. Among those was a bill from PUB. It stated about 200 bucks in the bill, may it be inclusive of both water & electricity or just the electricity, and he was black-faced. :( Cos it was a 50 dollar-increase. We naturally put the blame onto the hot weather and the newly installed aircon.. Apparently the new air-con system is more "powerful" than the whole one. More electricity is needed to power it. So he says: No switching on off air-con unless the weather is real hot. BUT that has what we ve been doin mah...
Yes so for the past wk.. The frequency of switchin on the air-con decreased tremendously. The bill for this month better be ....

Okay, so theres news about increasing the fee for per unit of electricity usage.. Apparently due to increase in oil prices issit. So my dad says: Switch off the main switch of TV cum DVD cum Video Recorder every night before we sleep. Yes, he thinks that red light at the "Standby" Button consumes electricity, so must switch off the main switch...

Really? So its like even when i on my printer but I am not printing also takes in electricity? So even if I switch off my Hi-fi using the on/off button.. The LCD displaying the time and wadeva also uses electricity? Does it does it? Tell me.. And so if i dont switch the main switch of my PC off but my PC is not on, it ll also consume electricity mah?

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I just told a tale.
Laptop batt running low and went into my study to take the adaptor. Exclamations when i saw a brandnew bottle of Peanut Butter on the study table ( my sis studying for her JCT) .. and! exclamations i asked her if she used her finger to directly scoop some into her mouth and she said yes. OMG. Yucks. At least use a spoon or whatever to scoop it into her mouth if she doesnt want it with bread or biscuit.
Then i ran off to my mum - complaining.
I feel so kiddish that moment ago. We have grown up telling tales about each other..
Like... Hor... Mummy! Lishean spill the water on the floor and just used her tee shirt to wipe it dry! Like... Hor... Mummy! Sis just took a piece of choc frm the fridge w/o telling u!

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Hoho.. imagine her seeing this post now.

Simple Day.

A simple day today. Woke at 9 in the morning to join Joyce and Lijuan for a K lunch session @ Marina Square. Comparing the quality of the lunches they serve ( servED cos apparently Tampines Kbox dao bi le! Wonder what's going to take over?) in Tampines KBox with the ones over at Marina Square.. U guys know whats 天渊之别？The Soya Chicken Rice I had in Tampines was served on styrofoam plates and was super salty! The Teriyaki Bento I had in Marina today was so much better. Had a small pc of Cheesecake that came along with it:) Was craving for cakes since so long ago but yet could not afford a piece, a real nice one frm either Cartel/Tcc/Nydc/Secret Recipe. Kays... I shall put it this way: I feel the pinch from Hongkong trip fees and I m trying to save $.

Enough about food.

I guess I am not and will never be a game-person. Maple Story Lvl 8 was considered furthest that I ve ever played for any such games. Laughs, I cant derive immense joy or satisfaction from those. No flair for it. No patience for the game guides too. But its a fair time-passing activity.

No luck this year for NDP tickets balloting. No good. Havent been missing NDP for consecutively 4/3 years and yet this last parade at Kallang Indoor Stadium I ll miss it. Anybody who has got the tickets and dont want to go? Unlikely I think. And then I did my part for Smiles2006.. Submitted a photo of my SMILE for the mural. Haha... Somehow i derive more joy from such than killing monsters.

Dear joycee goin Switz this Wednesday. I hope she ll enjoy the life there for 1 mth and get some real fun xperience. Take beautiful pics there n post them on your blog, girl. Take care!

715 still very shuai in tonight's CID! I like! 是帅的咯！

Sis having JCT tmr. Wish her good luck:)

715.

715!! Yes. haha.. Was watching the 9pm Police show on Channel 8 and I found myself smiling idiotic-ly whenever QiYuWu appears on screen. Haha. I am in love with him since last last last year when The Champions was screened. LOL. He has a certain air of arrogance and mystique that surrounds him. While my sis keeps protesting that he is not at all pleasing to the eye I had to agree otherwise
Sis: No he is not shuai.
Me: Oh yes he is :)

Dont be too amused. Indeed I am being abit too dramatic. Haha..
I am getting abit high from Maple cos i keep dying... and getting abit high cos its so late now. I am getting abit high cus i watch the 9pm show just now!
yea.

--To see a tsunami in your dream, represents that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feelings or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in some waking situation. --

Yes I dreamt of a tsunami nights ago. I wonder what does the above interpretation means. Waha.
I choose today to start my new maple character but appears that the server is busy :( Xiaoli says cos today is a double drop rate.

Spent 60 bucks yesterday while retail therapy-ing with Xiaoli and Meisi. Okay, they were essentials except that pair of shoes. N I thought I told myself not to buy any more shoes.. But nvm, i tink u people will agree I could do with more shoes. Lol... Thinking about the number of shoe-breaking-in-the-middle-of-the-road incidents. And.. I am aiming another pair @ URS.inc till the end of GSS.. thats y i kop-ed the priveilege card from Meisi. Waha.

I've been wanting to catch movie. A simple one will do. But in view of my schedule this coming wk. Weekday's day will be work. Mon, Wed nights tuition. Thursday Jap. So that leaves Tuesday or Friday... Wkends at escape. Who has a simple movie to recommend? Or rather, anybody itching for a movie lately? N i wan go Tampines only. Haha. I m jealous U guys have straight buses to town and Orchard!!! -_O

Take me to the clouds.

Had a shopping itch on sunday. But I dint go out in the end, neither did i spend any money. Passed by and walked into World Of Sports just now after work, walked to the socks section but none caught my eye. I ll just take it that I can save more money :) So that will be left for shopping in Hongkong :) Take me to the clouds, may it be budget or whatever. Yes, to the clouds and to Hongkong, thanks.

Did a full shift today. Meaning from 9.00am-8.30am O_O. Standing for 11 hours aint too easy. But I learnt more things today, more about the admin part.. like learning to photocopy all the settlement documents.. and dropping in of the remittance envelope. Carrying tens of thousands of cash in hand gets u an escort ride on the Buggy from Escape to DE! Haha even though tts a 1 min trip. Hoho.. Always felt like a burden to the seniors, even they may not have tt idea. Haiz, I ll make sure I dont appear it that way to juniors in the future.

I think I ll get my hair cut again tomorrow. I still think its still long.. I wan it short short short.
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How will u react if someone say this to u: woah so clever, u're in Uni.
I'll always have difficulty in answering this. May it be a fake-friendly reply or genuine reply. Teach me. I am always at a loss for words and I'll end up smiling back and say: 不会啦。

And if they say: If one day i can get into uni den good liao lor..
I'll answer: Can one lah, no prob. But to them, will they view it as sarcasm? Will they think like: Pls lah, obviously i cannot go uni lor. U still say very easy.

K. Maybe I'm just thinking too much and being extra cautious with new friends.
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Thought of the day: I m 19. I m old.

To all my good-est friends! :)

Sharing a nice song with meaningful lyrics :)
I have a habit of skipping all lyrics posted on blogs. However, read this. 姚若龙把友情的万岁写的好明。 不需要方文山的深度， 不需要林夕的煽情， 姚若龙把范范的这首《一个像夏天， 一个像秋天》 写的好好，如果我是夏天，你们都是我的秋天。“好肉麻”哈哈。 不必多说。
词:姚若龙 曲:陈小霞 　　
第一次见面看你不太顺眼 　　
谁知道后来关系那么密切 　　
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天 　　
却总能把冬天变成了春天 　　
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 　　
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂 　　
遇见一个人然后生命全改变 　　
原来不是恋爱才有的情节 　　
如果不是你 我不会相信 　　
朋友比情人还死心塌地 　　
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰 　　
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句 　　
如果不是你 我不会确定 　　
朋友比情人更懂得倾听 　　
我的弦外之音 我的有口无心 　　
我离不开Darling更离不开你 　　
你了解我所有得意的东西 　　
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形 　　
你知道我所有丢脸的事情 　　
却为我的美好形象保密

我们的纪念日

推荐范范 《 我们的纪念日》！ 好喜欢听后的感觉， 感觉很幸福， 开心， 轻松 ：）

I'm glad after working consecutively for 5 days in a row I feel more comfortable with my colleagues now as compared to 1 wk ago. Smiles. :) Nxt wk : 6 working days. Yea, $$ *beams with happiness* I am so money-minded. $$

My reading has been stagnant for many days and I am running out of interesting things to blog or fun facts to share...
Haha.. I am wondering: Does habitual bloggers (yes i mean when blogging becomes an addiction) actually live through each day.. seeing things... facing things.. while planning what to write in a post at the end of the day?

What I mean is I think there are generally 2 kinds of blogger.
Type A: U live through each day, observing things and taking note of them (may it be trivial, interesting, special, meaningful, weird, unique.. etc) and plans to write them in ur entry at night. U plan what to write in ur post starting frm the beginning of the day. How often do u hear you friend exclaim: Hey, this is so special/interesting/____ , I wan to take a picture of it, put in my blog.

Type B: At the end of the day, u try to recall what happened on that particular day and writes them in...

Guess the categorisation is not at all particular but I guess I m a Type A. When i read magazines, books, papers.. I go: Ah! I wan to put this in my blog tonight, if not someday...
I see something special..I go: Later must write in blog entry.

(Yes, i've been thinking through the above while making my way to work this morning.)
沉默。 双性。 神秘。 认真。聪明。分外迷人。

Glaxo Smith Kline opening new plant in Singapore. Yea... Its good news to Sg, good news to me too. Oh and Word Cup 2006 opening soon. Like real soon.. Yea! :) ! :) ! :)

Time has passed so quickly for the past 4 days.. leaving home at 8+ and returning home at 8 makes time pass in a swift. Lazy to blog detailedly what happened at work... but there's always eye candies on different days.. ahah small boys who comes to play at Escape and I forecast them being great shuaiges when they grow up. Haha.. And i saw the Campus Superstar Yuyang contestant ( Xiaoli! haha.. ) on Tuesday. Good thing about non deskbound jobs is that even though y0u might be doing the same routine, pple u see are different and different amazing problems pop out each day.. 1) A bunch of malay girls asked if our Admission department has got a pad.. ??? Haha then went to first aid.. Of cos first aid also doesnt store such stuff 2) Bunch of girls lost their bags. Found it and realised their handphone missing.. 3) A boy lost his handphone and got a bad scolding of his mum in front of me. Ouch. 4) Rude young chaps who order me to throw away their rubbish and when i point to the bin ( 2 m away) they insisted on pushing the waste receipts into my hands. Grr. Yet I cannot scold them... 5) Young chaps have weird sense of dressing now.. and.. full of vulgarities. Sigh. 6) Smoke! Alot of them smoke. Sigh.

Its alot of smiles and patience.

In a craze for earrings.. acquired 5 pairs in 3 days.... o_O
Mickey *blink blink* , Aquamarine pearl studs, Colourful shell dangling, Gween stars, Black/White Otello!
I think I am spending a lil' too much. But earrings and 2 books are all I ve bought since GSS! Haha..

And.. Whenever I feel like binging on junk food. I ll inform my mum and ask for her permission to eat them. Cus if she says yes.. it ll make it definitely alot better cos I m eating junk food with "support". U know u know, when I m not exactly thin, I tink eating junk food is a SIN. :P

<< had our pictures taken only at the end of JB trip. @ the Woodlands Checkpoint somemore.. Not even at JB checkpoint. Haha..

-- The 8 of us are v different... But we're happytogether.how is the weather :)

Oh yah..some questions for u guys.. got it frm wendy..
What if ur spouse gave u 1 million dollars one day?
Tell me your reaction, I m interested to know! Tagboard pls. :)

我不听 我不停
I have a question again. Does standing more than 6 hours a day in shoes(not heels) help with slimming or rather toning of the legs? Plus.. under the sun? I ll be jumping with joy if the answer is affirmative and that will be one more motivation for going to work apart from the pay. And I hope to make more friends there.. The busy work and individual lunch sessions doesnt seem to help.

>> Help! I did something to my pc. I did a recovery-thingy but it seems like I had it reformatted instead of recovering. Dead. Did no back-up at all. I win.

Back after 15mins of battling with it. I was prompted to enter the product key. No way I could've gotten it wrong, cus i wrote it down when zj gave it to me last time. Grr.. I've now messed the whole thing up. :( Help. 救命！

>>y so small.. anw.. RH neighbours..great friends! pre-celeb of yuxins birthday... posing with some weird structure in front of esplanade.

>> there's is v glam table at the "rooftop garden" of Fullerton Hotel.. Haha... My first time stepping into Fullerton Hotel wor... we are forever-not-lacking-of-poses.
>> in fullerton.. got nth to say about this pic.. Lemme just praise Kel for his photography skills.:)

>> posers...

>>>Intercept: While i was uploading these photos..while fiddling with my pc. I got my pc recovered. Yeah. Genius. Wahah.

一年前 （胡彦斌）

<<你还记得一年前
我们初次约会的那天
你靠在我左手的肩
问为什么月亮这么圆

我说是庆祝我和你见面
你说我的嘴怎么这么甜
可是现在的你不再像从前
是什么让我们疏远
我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远
感觉不到你还在身边
我只能活在期盼回到过去的世界
坚持到最后一夜
曾经的一点一点支离破碎的画面
是否和我一样想念
想念那每一个细节>> 一年前 （胡彦斌）

一年前的你们都在干嘛？ 生活是否有好大一个改变？ 一年前的我似乎好像跟现在一样。。 是好是坏？ 大家，你们在一年后的今天， 有没有想过要干嘛? 我呢？ 我可没再想。 困了。
好想要一朵yellow rose. 花店因该没有GSS 吧。 Ha. Ha.

Down for maintenance.

Blogger was down on Wednesday when I came online to type my entry: 2nd day of work. Since then, I have been down for maintenance since. Haha.. here goes my eventful 3-day account:

Wednesday(2 day @ work) : Went into the aquarium for cashiering duties.. Learnt it for the first day with Weijie and Shannon asked me to sub them while they go for lunch. Though its only 1/2 hr. But still.. STRESSED.. i dont wanna lose my pay of the day or even worse than that. Tada.. when i took over, it rained immediately.. Laughs. Hence, nobody came to purchase any tixs. But when it stopped raining, they werent back yet so I had to cover the cashier duties still.. Nets Machines, Visa Machines .. this and that.. I only knew how to use those as a customer till that day.. I finally knew how to operate those.. Net total for that(i guess, 1 hr?) - $674.25!!!! I was so glad when the calculations all tallied.. Haha..

Thursday: Work ended at 4pm. By the time i went to locker to get my stuff and walked to the MRT station it was already 4.30pm and I had to be at Goodrich at 5.30pm to join my ex-colleagues for a free dinner! Chiong-ed all the way home, bathe, change, then chiong out... Took a cab down Goodrich from Tampines Interchange. (Note: I haven even rested my feet till I sat down inside the cab) By the end of the dinner, which was at a Jap restaurant, I was SHAGGED. I was talking with a lag of a few seconds and my eyelids were so heavy. Reached home, bathe and took the bed at 10.30pm. Waha.

Friday: Work followed by tuition. Promptly to bed for maintenance at 10pm and woke at 9pm for work today.

Saturday: Finally!!! There's is no work tomorrow. I am so tired... 酸！脚好酸！There isnt any work scheduled for me today actually but Weijie called last minute for me to sub somebody. Ok lor, since I ll be at home anw and just earn some money haha.. Got my schedule for nxt wk..! Faints...... 9.30-7.30pm Mon and Tues, 9-6pm Wed, 9-4pm Thursday, 9pm-8pm Fri. 累。Pls let me be in the aquarium, Im willng to be the cashier now....... Now that everything is not too messy and my legs are too chui le... haha... Oh, good thing... no tuition for nxt wk! My student is off to NZ.. xingfu.

There's going to be bowling tomorrow. Need to wake early again.. Shall go home promptly after that tmr and rest. I have no idea why I sleep like 10 hours a day but I feel lethargic when i reach home. Prolly is due to the nature of the work. Oh! Saw Zechou yesterday and Chihlin today at Escape today.. Pple! Go Escape and Have Fun! Haha..

I have a feeling I ve got lots more to tell.. but I dont remember all of them now..
Oh yah.. I have a tendency to smile at any stranger along my way.. Cos I am so used to smiling at the customers.. 脚酸， 手酸，嘴也酸。。。。

Hello... Yes mdm? Yes sir? Excuse me, pls.. Thank u.. Enjoy ur day!. Okay:), Byebye!

bookwormgerm.

Books on hand:
1) Blink
2) Tuesday with Morrie
3) 收到你的信已太迟
4) Pride and Prejudice *coming soon
5) Greenriver Daydreams
6) Grass for his pillows.

I think he is stupid, he is weird, AH!!!!!!

Grr. First day of work @ Escape wasnt bad at all, xcept for one person, one particular guy.

HELLO!?! I have known you for lesser than 24 hours. Can u not be so touchy?! Can u not touch my hands, my shoulders, my waist and may it be on purpose or what my butt!?! Grr!!! See i wasnt wrong! First day of orientation he wasun-friendly(joyce says..), i think i had a better description, i said he was WEIRD! Got a bian-tai face. Worse den BLUD (Lol).. GRR!

Lesson learnt today: Stand far away frm X, pass things pass using finger tips, talk to him coldly.
I hate pple touching my shoulders.. and he is only 0.1 degree higher than a stranger to me lor.
Incidents of the day:
1) Give me pen to take attendence. HELLO!?! pen is v long leh. can dont touch me not.
2) Pass me the stamp + UV torch ( dunno how many times) also can hav physical contact.
3) And u want me move to the other side can just point to me or tell me. Can dun show me the directions by placing ur hand on my waist and "make me move" I wun move lor, i ll JUMP! God give u hands for what.
4) If u think Im doing sth wrongly( which i wasnt!), could have just walked beside me and tell me. Why do u think to call me by putting ur hand on my shoulder.

I AM SO ANGRY I AM SO MAD. If its like that again tmr. Thats it..
Pls pls let me be in aquarium tmr. I ll rather face the guests than him!!! I think this is the first time I am so pissed by a stranger.

And every 10 min drink once water and go dunno how many times toilet. And so kay-po ask me so many questions.

Lets hope i m being so biased cus i m irritated by him being so touchy.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.... :(

I am going to die of nervousness, if theres such a word. I am so worried about the job @ escape tmr!!!! Ah...!!!!! Take results also not this nervous. Interview also not like this. Why am i so daunted by the job tmr!?!
I am a scaredy cat.
I am not courageous enough. Hur.................

>> Gween! All the green stuff that I emptied from my pencil case. Thats a hedgehog hey!

>> New Cathay Cineplex creative basins in the female's toilet. Abit impractical - hard work for the cleaning auntie. The basin is only perhaps slightly lesser than 1-inch deep.

>>Yays. In memory of my 2nd big walk :) Why do i pay to walk. Cus i shuang mah. And yes, i doodled my name on that pc of paper.

>> Nike Merge Collection. I cant just buy it. Tt will be worth a few days of my pay.

yes, im clearing photos from my pathetic handphone.

the bad thing abt online purchasing n a card in ur hand.
A click a few minutes ago and 70 bucks gone. I din know if I made a correct decision. U guys will know in 3 mths time, whether 70 bucks is all worth it or not.

好容易受委屈的女子/生/人 vs 坚强凡是挺着的女子/生/人

是否曾想过， 自己是后或前者? 还是，潜意识好容易受委屈的女子都装着一幅坚强凡是挺着的女子的模样。

<<好容易受委屈
披上盔甲，走到哪儿去，挺到哪儿去
矛与盾， 这两个武器，有时真让人喘不过气
骑士的精神，好一个ladyknight in armour
握着白旗的右手，蠢蠢欲动

其实，我想做个公主吗？
走到哪儿去，疼到哪儿去，也痛到哪儿去
其实，我也好容易受委屈， 好想听一声：“我挺你！”>>

//hows work@ wildwildwet/escape? ask me that 3 days later.

sth i found out tt i cant tolerate: impracticality in life. tts sad. does that leave out room for fantasy? i hope one day, i ll say: i dont mind impracticalities in life. Face it, i think i ll end up choosing tt shorter river route back home instead of tt longer river route with pretty flowers. told u, its pathetic.

"u very lame lah"

its weird how my brain goes through the thinking process,

so ttyl = tok to ya later
and yuenling has alwaes been thinking ttyl = tata yuenling.

so tgif = thank god is friday
and yuenling has alwaes been thinking tgif = a modified version of a .gif file

so llliren = just happened out of coincidence
and yuenling has alwaes been thinking llliren = i love liren ( and its how "i" starts with "I" and not "L" and why din i realise that)

and yuenling has alwaes been thinking..
not wishfully i hope.

[edits] sometimes i just talk in 3rd person account. weird huh.

//saw Hi5 at Marina KR today... they were just sitting at the table behind us. Warning: Getting too near Hi5 makes u high. Kelvin makes a good proof of my hypothesis.. Yays. n that means more candid shots. Happy today.

ulu~ Yuen Ling asks a question.

What does tgif means? I have seen it more than once.. Can anybody educate me?
//
I dreamt of school yesterday. Characters: Me, xiaoli, Yixin, Mr Ng (My JC Maths tutor) Place: My primary school

Dreamt that....
I had a Programming Practical + MCQ on that very day and I forgot all about it until i saw Yixin studying the past year papers.. and her hand-written notes in foolscap paper in different colours. How real was that. Worse thing is, Programming is open-book but I din bring anything about Programming to school at all. Haha.. *Panic* ( Why wasnt I staying in hostel in the dream? Cos it was primary school. dot dot dot) Ask Xiaoli if she got bring my prog notes to school not. *to my horror*, she didnt. So frantically, I used my laptop to search for the past yr question and solutions, hopefully to pick something out of it. Yea, and cs1101c does actually have a webpage for that. Lol. So.. We are supposed to modify the dunno-wad-gene of the plant and design a program such that the leaves grow in a certain direction desired. *how duh?!*

Nxt scene: It was 1plus in the afternoon and the PE is at 3.30pm Yes, i remember clearly from the dream it was 3.30pm.. So i decided to rush home to take my stuff. Cus I was at Junyuan remember? Going home just takes 1/2 hr.. Haha.. Before I ran home, met mr ng.. He said that i did well for my maths test.

//

It is either 1) i had too much horror frm programming last yr and this is a much-delayed aftermath 2) what mr ng said might bring good news for my ma1506 :) hopefully 3) i tink i miss schoolwork 4) i had a hard-time fallin asleep last night, toss n turn, these were probably the people/things that were goin thru my head before i fell into deep sleep.

issues.

If you arent interested in knowing some facts and trivia-s, skip this.
Dont find them boring. Cus i fished them out while reading. There are small things that you might not have notice or small things that ll just amaze u.

Is the newspaper making you sneeze?
If you sneeze or have watery eyes when you're reading the papers, you could be allergic to newsprint."Some people do have a reaction to a substance in newspaper ink called acacia gum"It is possible that u r reacting to dust or mould on the paper. The best way to ell for sre is to take a skin or blood test. If it's positive, popping an over-the-counter antihistamine before and washing ur hands after reading the papers should stop the sniffles.

Work stress or depression - which kills u?
By monitoring 630 women and 933 men and comparing blood markers associatedwith increased risk of diabetes, heart disease and stroke, it was found that job burnout is risker for women and depression for men.

So depression for men and job stress for women huh?

Adidas 1.1, $429
It has a faster computer chip so that the shoe responds to your cushioning needs even more instinctively. Like its predecessor, impact from your foot is processed by the chip which then responds by "stiffening" the sole according to give u the cushioning u need. You cant get more customised cushioning than this.

So. I knew chips can get into me. Recall: MI 3. I nvr knew, chips can go underneath me in my shoes.

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I dont like that definition
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i tink u are clever
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I tink u r dumb
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then i shall stop chatting with u
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byebye
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nice. NICE. Nice.

Fetish for black phones: N72. and this samsung phone. Decidedthat Sony Ericsson W810/W801(forever cant get their names right) thou is black, but is too "blocky" too..

心情真不好。别惹我。心情不好时， 容忍度及耐心也更着减少。别说我没警告。

here and there...

Accompanied my aunt, my mum, and my baby cousin for a swim at my aunt's house yesterday evening..kay, it was more of a night swim. Hehs, swimming babies look so cute. Ha! He keep spinning himself... (like a washing machine) and when I look underneath the water, his legs are moving around so vigorously! Seriously forgot what happened when i was a small baby. Did i visit the pool? Did my parent's bring me to the pool? Guess I did, cos' i saw a pic of myself in swimming attire. That was... 2 years old i guess. No memory till the swimming lessons in K2.

Woke at 6am this morning to meet Andrea for Big Walk. She still had to work after that. Hope she wasnt too tired at work today. Saw alot of "unique" people at Big Walk today... Pple on stilts.. Doggies! and yah.. pictures comin up! :) Took a complimentary copy of SHAPE magazine. Theres is SHAPE run on the 16 July... 5km/10km... Just for women only... Nice things to offer in the Runner's Kit cos i saw a Nike Water Bottle. A Gym Bag. Ankle Socks. and lots more.... they say there will be 370 bucks worth of goodies for us to collect.. There's still about 2 months more to work for the 5km leg run.( I try not to think of the 10km. Haha) Who wants to participate? And try to persuade me into joining her, kays.. And let me train with her.. Somehow, such things are very difficult for me to succeed if I m doing it all alone. Oops, forgot to mention, theres still a 15 registration fee..

Have you ever wanna do something...Something that you wld like to try.. But gave it a miss cos' u cant find friends around you who wish to actually give "physical" support by taking part together with you? Sighs. I guess there were many of those in my life. 真没用! 真的，一大群人真的会壮胆。

I feel like I ve been eating alot since the swim yesterday. I shall go run later. Cos' my dad says he is cooking fish steamboat for dinner later. I sense a nutrition overload on me. Need to work off some calories later, get some cardiovascular activity. 1 min = 11 cal burnt off. I dont know how much I need. No matter what, I shall just run lah.

Callme Callme

Call me Call me.. Agencies please call me.
I'll love to hearem' say: Hello, may i speak to yuenling. Are u interested in working at XXX.
I'll say yes. Yes, I'll say.
Turns out that goodrich dont want me. Anymore.
All they want, is me being part of their bowling team at 4 June 2006.
Gosh, agreed. I dint know how to reject.
And now they say, GM hasnt approve. Dont want hold u back any further.
You should start looking for jobs le.
Sent out chunks and chunks of resumes. Staring at my phone for that "Little Mermaid" ringtone
Why dont agencies call me...
I'm broke.. Very.
How am i suppose to go Hongkong.
It makes me less excited in and out. Left and Right. Back and front.
I have no money!

//I'm allergic. I'm allergic to outings and spendings. I 'll just say no. Last one shall be nxt Thursday with yix or maybe Xiaoli.
//Outings to job agencies i dont mind. I'm desperate, i ll put it that way.

Binge.

Went ICA Building today to update the photo of my passport. Waited for almost 2hrs in the queue....(Crowded!) But I'm usually quite patient with this kind of waiting.. Doesnt hurt if i m not rushing for anything.. Especially when they're playing Mr Bean on tv. Hilarious.

Went to walkwalkseesee around lavender area. Since I guess it ll already be too late for me to go down to Ubi Driving Centre to get the registration of BTT done. Plus, i am superduper hungry and was desperate to find food! Haha.. Walked to some ulu building behind Lavender Mrt Stn, mostly selling wholesale goods and I can find no food! So just wandered around. Noticed that North Bridge Road and Crawford Lane are actually so close together. And basic Pipa course for 12 lessons cost 80bucks. Pls, I dont think 12 lessons are actually good enough. Haha...

Wandered off to "Army Market" and somewhere near there i spotted a bakery. Its called: EggWhitesNBake.. bought an otah bun... Wandered off to Golden Mile next and walked back to the Mrt.

Back at tampines. Had a sudden craving for Old Chang Kee's Curry Puff. Binged. Saw Cheesecake at Qbread. Binged. (not nice de...)

Lunch= Otah Bun + Curry Puff + CheeseCake.
(Kk.. I ll start my diet after Carl's on Thursday.)

That Grin With a Tear

Do u see it?
Even when they're suffering, they look so cute.
"What wonderful creatures the pink dolphins are. See how their mouths are fixed in permanent grins. How charming is that? You starve them and they smile. You force them to jump through hoops all year and they smile. You use them as living surfboards and they smile. You shut them all up in tiny holding pens and they still look up everyday and smile. You could not do this with other endangered mammals now, could you? Tigers would get all nasty and mean. Pandas would sad and miserable. But not these pink dolphins. What wonderful, gay creatures they are."

They belong. to the vast open seas.

Teenage All Over Again

Just finished reading Princess Diaries Sensixtion a while ago. Remembered i was hooked to it 2 years ago and when i made a trip down the library that day, i saw the 6th book of the series and picked it up.

It made me: see the title.

I laugh at myself for getting crazy all over Michael Moscovitz, who is no more than a fictional charactor. Was so eager to meet him in the Princess Diaries movies who apparently, my sis says, is very ugly. Never got to see PD1 anyway, till now.

Met him again once more in this 6th book. Reminded me of someone's shadow this time round. Made an evaluation why i was so head over heels over Michael that time. Prolly cos' he was different..(u know these books and shows are forever featuring hot guys frm the basketball/soccer/baseball team of some high school/college/varsity or those who play beach volley super well with great bods and teen girls go ga-ga over them).. Prolly cos' Michael was smart, wrote a song for Mia and i think he was interested in things people nvr were. Charm. Haha. Why do i add so much drama in analysing a fictional character.

::sohappytogether.howistheweather::

::我想买一朵花给自己，放在房里，让心情愉快：：
::宠：：

记得，好一段时间，我非常抗拒自己独自一人到人山人海的购物中心。心里总是觉得，有好多眼睛都注视着我。看见大伙都是成群结队，总会让“独自”行走着的我觉得分外孤单，心里总觉得怪怪的。有时，在巴士上独自一人， 都觉得路程特别漫长。

曾经想过， 自己为何那么奇怪？
结果事情过后，回想起来，是当初自信心不够？还是那只是成长的过程，总是希望被朋友家人陪伴着，凡是总觉得就算面对什么困难，都会有一群人一起顶着。

我今天独自一人到TM选购母亲节礼物时，心里想着：很开心，当年的“心理包袱”以从此不在。或许，人的成长，也代表着，虽然人是群体动物，自己必须学者面对事情， 必须自己学着处理事情。

反而，如今的我，已找到一人到处走走跑跑看看的乐趣。如今的我，似乎还不这么渴望在我生命还未出现的 apart. 可不是酸葡萄喔！：）

：：享受人生：：
:: 想瘦！人生：：

(想一想，我的博客的读者， 到底有谁就算读了以上的文字，结果对内容还是一知半解的呢？到底又有几位，看到一大堆的华文字，又会坚持读到这一句呢？ 又有几位，看见这些华文字，便索性跳到另一个网页呢？）

SaladMixingBowl

Went for 2a nine sista's gathering @cartel yesterday night after klunch with joyce&yuxin. Then went over to BK to talk talk and to divide our sweets.. "i wan tt gween sweet".. Its been long since all of us.. 8 of us were present...except eleen!! u better see this!

Was reading TIME this morning when i woke. Thanks to my sis who's subscribing to it because of GP and the need to read up on current affairs, I've a weekly digest of TIME, which sometimes features on interesting cover stories.. So a couple of weeks down, I've read on Queen Elizabeth's Birthday.. was it 83th, 86th? or even older? cant remember.. and Hooha over Da Vinci's Code movie release and of cus's theres always feature on the Iraq's situation.. (which has been inside since I was in J1!! And i'll just skip that part conveniently..)

Noticed this article on HongKong's air quality due to severe air pollution. "the city's air pollution index hit a high of 149 - a level at which those with cardiac or respiratory problems are advised to reduce physical exertion.." (how high was Singapore's air pollution index the time when i was in p5 and schools had to stop??)

"Hongkong has lost its sky. The city is frequently cloaked in noxious smog, and many days the only place you can see a clear shot of the famously picturesque skyline is in ads for luxury apatments."

"The only safe conclusion is that [air pollution] is having a very serious adverse effect on the health of people of all ages..."

"here's the good news: air pollution has become so severe and so unremitting that HongKongers are fed-up - and may be ready to force their leaders to act ..." ( Will i witness my first encounter with a riot/protest in Hongkong?)

I have heard the news from TV but it took me this article to realise how serious it was. What do I have to say? What do yuxin and lijuan have to say?(Give me your thoughts about it kay? Cos we really need a decision..) Will this deter us from going Hongkong?? Shrugs. I dont mind going(really) and i dont mind not going.. for the country will not run away from us.. Will I see the sky in July?

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Something to share: I'm so lucky Im not a fan of cokes and sodas. Sugar-shots.

Its loaded with sugar- drink just 2 355ml cans od soda a day - the average for kids 15 -19- and at the end of one week you have poured down enough sugar to fill a 0.7kg bag.

Its full of empty calories -A 591ml bottle of Coke packs 240 calories and no significant amounts of vitamins or minerals. Even sugary fruit juices contain some nutrients.

and..2/3 of U.S adults are overweight or obese..[state of shock!] .. constant naggin doesnt help.. will statistics do the job?

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I never knew..
Hedgehogs look like this in real-life.
Edits: And I nvr knew, when u click "More" at the bottom of the virtual pets space.. u'll get a strawberry to feed the hedgehog...

观看人生剧场。我只好说：匪夷所思， 变幻莫测。
Giants in BFG says we are human beans 豆般的体积， 难道威力也只豆豆般的渺小？才不。看来今天的我是乐观的。：）

A trip to ECP 让我红了！
Nah, mediacorp didnt happen to be filming some "post election - what do the public think?" there nor filming some drama serials and happen to rope me in as an extra or passer-by. 可是我真的红了，都是太阳惹的祸！
Sun was super strong today, or did i chose to wrong time of the day to be under the sun? 1.20pm to 4pm. Finally went cycling at ecp with yinjie today:) Was glad to see her again after so long,yay.

I guess I'm continuing to be suay after the "forgot-key" incident. Happily rented a bike from one of the rental shops but as i proceed the bike felt v weird. Or rather, the rider, me, felt v weird riding that bike. Lol. First, the gears doesnt seem to be working. There was no difference whether at light or hard gears, which made the up-slopes difficult. And... I cant speed with that bike at all! Grr... And as compared to Yinjie's, you need more peddling action to cover the same distance with mine. Sighs. Finally cannot stand it and decided to exchange with Yinjie ( silly of us, didnt even think of turning back and make an exchange)
Total in 2hrs, we made 3 swops. Haha, leg ache leh! It feels like riding a bike with punctured tyres but the typres r not punctured! Grr.. stupid bike.

Saw people sailing, windsurfing, cable-skiing and paraskiing today. And some playing what-do-u-call-those-controlling-small-cars-with-a-remote-control. Ya, when you are riding a difficult bike, you need to enjoy more of the surroundings around you, to be more observing about things around you, to make it lesser a chore to ride that difficult bike. Somehow, I do that when I am running alone, that is to make the distance seem shorter. :)

Went for lunch at Komala's Indian Restaurant at about 3.30pm. Yes, lunch. Haha, we are both will-not-hungry type. Ate a masala dosai, it was so big and left us so full that we decided to walk to parkway parade. Yes, under the sun again. Haha..

Gains from this trip: 红了！A red-ded face.. and a meet-up with my long time no see friend! :)

Tomorrow I m going to pay Tampines new swimming pool a visit. It has got jacuzzi, a long slide etc that makes it a very different from normal pools. Hope I wont be suay again ... Like.. pls dun let my bump my head against the side walls when doing backstroke.. How imaginative.
如果真的发生，那就邪门了！

You see, I'm typing alot in chinese.. Cus this new layout supports chinese characters... unlike my previous. So I'm going to make up for the "lost time". :D.

Guess Im really happy today.

Check my "hedgedog the hedgehog" out...
This doesnt run at supersonic speed. But rolls and spins in the air dumbly.
I like the way it smiles when its in the air.
It looks 幸福。

The world just shoke me 15mins ago. Try it, i ve experienced it twice this sem. And nvr before in my whole life.

I hate myself for ever-true predictions and to-the-eye observations and it-convinces-me-so-well linking ability and imagination.
And that friend, yes that friend, had me guessed 4 things in a row correctly (not including the address). Im ever amazed by coincidences.
And why am i so good at guessing suicide stories. It freaks me out.
And i wan to stop predictions. Can i be ever so wrong for once that it finally convinces me that : Yuenling, this time u aint gonna be right.
It nvr happened. Nvr happened.
And what about a litre of tears, ive had mine too. That litre chucked away inside.
Pls stop. girl, pls stop ur abilities. If they are so true, so why nothing uve predicted ever happen on u?

Freaked out. Drained. Masked out.

//The stronger ones get hurt more. The weaker ones get hurt and retreat.Yes, that story about the frog and scorpion. Abit more than shaken. See, the world isnt fair.. u brave it and get urself hurt once more.
See once more, the world is perhaps fair. Logically.. who else but the braver ones to brave the war? I din say weak the war, did i?

A sudden spin in my head 15 mins ago led me into writing all these. Its the 2nd spin this sem, and nvr before.

Yes, i m abit more than shaken. I've been spinned off my guard.

For the past 1/2 hour, I've been getting self-excited. Shrugs.

*Sender more excited than reciever*
Was chatting with an og friend and realised his birthday is just arnd e corner..
All began with us discussing which grc is a walkover and which arent. Went on abt guessing his address and i cheated by looking at the og contact list.
And so zhun again realised his birthday is arnd e corner. Decided to pop him a surprise ( k lah, not a big surprise.. but he ll nvr expect i ll know his birthday is coming..) Began searching online for birthday greetings.. realised all need registration for free trial. Cumbersome.
So just fiddled arnd with the exisiting pictures in my com using paint and did him a birthday card. Haha..

In the end, he tot i send him some scary movie clip or picture, he dont wanna open and hotmail is lagging .

So i end up being excited, all by myself, haha...
Alright, he opened it in the end ( if he doesnt i faint of adrenaline overush. Prolonged self-excitement).. Haha..
Nice to know that I've made him happy for at least 1 sec? ( e very moment he reads the card), cus he's been a nice friend.

And so ive finally managed to get the last episode of The Undisclosed from the harddisk of the dvd recorder into the dvd-rw for kel and meisi. So happy.. But then it failed to play in my laptop. Sian 1/2. I guess i failed to finalise or initialise or whatever to it. Gonna try it later.

Btw Jade Seah is revived. Blinkblink!!!

And so i found this pic that caught me the moment i set my eyes on it. So much wanting to make it my desktop wallpaper. Sian, had difficulty again. Sighz.
And so joyce helped me with it. K.. doesnt look as nice as it was when it was smaller. But still.. its nice.. :)
Its been long since "love at first sight". Haha, how weird do i put it.
The old one... haha...close up really nice de.

Now. which is nicer... :p

Sian lor. i know some will say.. both also not nice. haha! Can u pamper me by saying both also nice!?! lol.

"k bye. i need to rush"
"btw, im watching a lame movie"

"so whats the lame movie?"
"Aquamarine...haha"

Indeed, i din expect much from this movie.
But it turned out to be pleasant. I was smiling throughout. Nice.
Made me feel real young after watching the show. Haha.. How serious can the plot get with a mermaid in it?

Im forever lazy to type out the whole story, as usual. But heres some nice phrases i caught from the show... :)

I love the LOVE!

"Why are you always so sure about yourself? Why are you always so sure about life?"
"Cos im loving life!"
"Be nvr afraid of your life, and be friends with your life!"

"I'm leaking! No, u're just crying!" "That something you do when ure sad!"
"You humans, the nxt time something leaks from my nose, you're going to tell me that something that happens when im happy"
Hilarious :)

Mermaid: " Is there really love? Apparently, i failed to found any!"
"Yes there is! Love is......
the closest thing next to magic.... "
Oh?

"My earrings compliment me!"
"My earrings will sure complement u too!"
"No! they really compliment me! I've got to get those starfishes! they whisper sweet-little things into your ears and the best thing is, they nvr lie!"
...oh, aquamarine is so pretty, aquamarine is so cute.. aquamarine is... (in tt starfish tone. so cute)
HaHa.

Love is, the closest thing next to magic.

I'm still waking everyday and thinking I'm late for meeting someone at the library to start mugging. Or I've forgotten to go for tuition..
I cant stand idling. I mean, for too long...
So... while many of you guys are still having your papers, I've already messaged melody and told her i ll be ready to start work.
*Itchy hand lah... *
When you guys finally clear all ure papers and ready to have fun and start to arrange for shopping/movie/karaoke/outing sessions..and im bugged with work.I'll start lamenting again.. Haha..

N i refuse to start jogging on just-after-the-rain pavements. Puddles puddles puddles.

:: Being Boring ::
:: Bothering Boredom ::

An online session of frivolous pursuits.

Buy me a "be-a-princess, to-be-adored-by" day. I'll apprrrreciate that verrrry much.

Sho nice Sho nice. Wish my birthday is just around d' corner.

Who's getting married? Who needs a bridesmaid?

Or perhaps, i need a sugardaddy. Wahaha. Or any of you girls wan to pamper me? Muaha.

Or.. the store is giving 20% storewide discount. Mother Day's Special. Who wants to be my son/daughter?

Or have i been reasonably good to you guys somehow thesedays? ( very hard ah...) Buy me any one, just one as a reward? Haha.....

You will make my day!

// In the end, i'll just walk by that shop one day. And just decide to pamper myself. Reach for my wallet.....

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Once watched a dance with this music. Had this song replaying in my mind many a times during revision. Nice duet. Chants: I want to find this song.
Click to enjoy...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nxNLnpDqI1A

:: I'm old ::

Some thanks.
Was reading blogs of my neighbours... Thesedays.. exam stress have brought them together. ( As in.. those who have been stayin back in hall for the recess week). I took my leave cos i know i just cant study at hall. Haha.. Dint feel left out even thou i was like away for 1 1/2 weeks. Glad.

I dont know how would i have survived the 1st sem in NUS without RH, particularly my neighbours, really. Breaks in between lessons, discussion on module matters, doing online assignment together. Eating meals together. Having grown so comfortable with them during these 2 sems.

Sem 2 was an accident. A perfect accident. Not my initial decision to stay hall in 2nd sem. But, yes as perfect as it was, i was glad i did change my mind last minute to change the application form.

The fact that we ll miss each other when anybody's not around means he/she has already a place in our minds =). Something rare. A friendship, forged in a different way, and i m glad it happened.. Its like we r constantly "camping". New neighbours hazie and eleen moved in. Added to the CHAOS in Block 2! ahah...

Its now when i m moving out of hall in abt 1 weeks' time that.. i had time to grow through all this in my mind. I appreciate this friendship and yes yes. Gonna miss em' all. Real Bad. But reality always fall in when we know 4 of us r movin out of hall this sem and the busy schedules of studies arent going to allow us to catch up veh often. And we all know that its going to be different when we r not going to be "under one roof" anymore. But then, kelvin and liren! Prepare your room to be bombed by me, xl, meisi and xj!

How am i going to go through sem 3 w/o hall. I know its a funny qn to pose. But. yes at the same time. I do wan to stay at home. n i dun mind tt travelling frm tampines to clementi....

Haha.. there was one pt of time, we all had our msn nicks as:
I heart my neighbours!
I love my neighbours!
My neighbour loves me!
Love Thy Neighbour!
Wo ai wo ling ju!

Love should nvr be left unspoken :)

Its like exams are over? But why dont i feel the kick. Sigh, perhaps i did really study till shag. I did justice to my body by sleeping like 7hrs a day and justice to my leisure by faithfully catching the 9pm Channel 8 Drama every night. C'mon. I gave up my 715 in Ren Wo Ao You during Alevels, y didnt i resist the temptation for the past wk? Sian lor. Perhaps thats why i din feel the "kick" of post-exams period.

I think i was bored. (during recess week muggin at home). (Hair messy = study till crazy le)

Haha...And i m still bored after exams. Found a book with some Jay pictures inside during one of my mugging trips to the TRL. Just did a few snapshots of the pictures inside. Attempted to read the story(which I ve already seen on the MV) but the chinese words are vertical and are (fan ti) so.. Haha tmr i ll return it to lib le.

This was a photo taken during his..........4th album. I think. The one with my favorite song. Yuan You Hui. Shots from the mv included in this book:

Haha.. I thought the girl was quite pretty in this photo.. ( Talking about pretty girls.. haha just finished watching Survivor just now. Not pretty girls... but cute guys.. haha despite this unshaven look.. Aras!!! Haha. Yandao!!! The last time i watched Survivor, which was a couple of weeks ago, he was almost voted out. But he's still in this episode! Yea!)

Oh yah. And I ve concluded that Jay looks better from his left profile. Not that anybody will agree with me that he will actually look better frm any angle. I still wanna insist that its not his looks that makes him so......dunno how to describe. But he's just seh. Haha. Soft spot for seh-ness not cute-ness haha.

Yes. Tmr shall be more constructive. Like waking at 8am to go for tuition, den off to a trip to the library to return that book and borrow some books on hongkong. and... maybe look for some recipes on how to make nice cream sauce for pasta.. (why do i sound like some nothing-to-do auntie) and then off to hunt for my sis bday present. And... to open another bank a/c. Shift the bulk of my money to a dunno-what saving plan a/c which is suppose to hav higher returns lah.

Horleydae. Holiday. Hawliday.

I m selfish. When its gone for me I hope its gone for everybody else too. But why does it not seem to be the case. Really THE END mah? *isolation* I cant stand the grins and smiles. Find me in deep shit.

:: sometimes, tt extra lil bit of thoughtfulness doesnt come so easily ::

Had my poor brain cramped "n" number of formulas for PC1432. ( n = 6.2 pg X number of lines per page of the foolscap). And I had to be so unlucky to copy down that formula on the foolscap wrongly and it zhun zhun came out for the paper? Was attempting that question halfway and got an impossible answer and realised I must have either memorised it wrongly or copied it wrongly. So the latter was right. Sian That question was a give-away, had i been intelligent enough to anyhow manipulate the formuala, I might have BOM out a correct answer. Yes, and i go on whining..

Cant get PC1432 out of my mind. Cant get EG1109 into my mind.

Anyways, right after the paper, asked zj if this was an easy or difficult paper.. Had expected he to say it was easy and indeed it was. Sian. I knew it was an easy paper with so many repetitions from past yr (worse thing is i did the past years!).... Thats y stupid mistakes magnifies itself in an easy paper. Sian.

Tuesday's paper... Statics! This is the module that Ive been underperforming since the beginning of this semester. I need luck man... Plspls. Dont let me make those dreaded stupid mistakes again!

So much about exams.. I m so in a whining mood. mode?

Had my double fillet, like finally, today... Nice nice leh. Haha.Double enjoyment. Double layers of fillet. yix says... " The fillet(single) looks so ke lian on the tray".. Indeed... almost 75% in NUS Mac was havin double fillet lah! Haha.. Plus plus its cheaper in NUS mah.

Oh! Had my shopping list ready for post-exam. I need a..... watch. I need a.... pair of heels... k lah, its not really a list. ( N.. its 22th apr now.. i ve only spent 75bucks, yeah!)
But I ve alot of things to eat after exams...
haha. I wan to eat Manhattan Fish Market... Carl's Junior ( I wan to challenge myself. Finish one whole meal by myself!!) , I m cravin so much for dim sum.. And ask my girl friends out to KR! Its been so long! plus plus.. cravin a lil' bit for pasta and then... I wan to eat.. Indian Food ( yes yes the one at Peninsula Plaza)...

[ go exercise la. eat eat eat]

Whooops.

The Indian Butterfly Legend akin to the "more birds more luck"???
::Butterfly Indian Legend ::
If anyone desires a wish to come true they must first capture a butterfly and whisper that wish to it.
Since a butterfly can make no sound, the butterfly can not reveal the wish to anyone but the Great Spirit who sees and hears all.
In gratitude for giving the beautiful butterfly its freedom, the Great Spirit will always grant the wish.
So, according to legend, by making a wish and giving the butterfly its freedom, the wish will be taken to the heavens to be granted

Copied this from some renaissance butterfly website when i did a Butterflies word search on google. I am actually quite surprised there are actually companies who offer "live" butterfly releases during weddings and events. Gosh, i ll be freaked out. I ll probably cover my ears with my fingers and squat as low as i can on the floor.

Cheerup, gal

Cheer me up.
Something can. Lets switch the date to 29th apr 2006.
Or perhaps, to benefit my friends, 4th may will do.

Woke with a swollen eye this morning -_O.
Reasons:
XiaoLi: We all study too much liao!
Kelvin: Bedsheet dirty. (But i just changed it last wk!)
Joyce: Not enough sleep? Cried last night? Nono.
YuenLing: I dunno!

-_O. -_O. -_o. -_0

I'm missing the butterflies. Whichever way you want to take it to be.

[Did away with the music]

Guess I m lil too bored with Serway. Hehz. Fiddled with a picture that i quite like, added something to it, made it my wallpaper. Shall stay with it for some time. =)

Every memory of walking out that front door
I found the photo of the friend I was looking for
Its hard to say it
Its hard to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye.

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh.
Everytime I do it makes me.

[[ the puzzles of life ]]

Figured out that I wont have the mood to touch my books tonight. Yes, I'm still speaking of MOOD when its less than 18 days to exams. Yes, I dont feel the urgency yet. Hit my head! But... i still mug. But its just mugging w/o sense of urgency. Hows that?

Lamenting. About my immune system. Whats wrong!!! Been sick quite a few times this sem and I haven fully recovered from my draggy cough and I'm down with flu AGAIN. Its not like I dont exercise, its not like i dont eat my veges and fruits. Its not like i dont sleep enough. Its...
Ok lar.. Its not always that i can link and cause /effect relationship with everything.

Spent the last hour printing 51 pages of tutorials, lab instructions, online assignments, online tutorial, statics hint, andpast yr exam papers. Took awhile to collate them and everything.. Such that paper usage is minimised. But still 51 pages at one go! Whoa. (Was still talking to Xiaoli about 100 pg FYP for Life Science Major. Printing 100 pages at a go, how shiok is that. 1/5 of that Double A ream of paper. Or rather 0.03 cents multiped by 100.Ok lar 3 dollars. 3 years later, remind me to use CBLC printer for my FYP) Not to mention if there are like draft no. 11!?!

Whoa, how disorganised is this post. I think i m not thinking.
Eh. I m not thinking whether i m thinking anot.
Blink, I think i m off to bed.

I have sudden craving. For honeydew.
Joyce, dont tell me to buy it when i have my cravings.
How many things that I ve suddenly craved but din get it in the end.
Famous Amos? Ban Mee? and Siew Mai..

Omg. No place sells nicer honeydews than TJ fruit stall.
Perhaps its the memories along with it tt makes it so juicy so sweet and so nice.
"Auntie/Uncle! 4 pcs honeydew! Wo men yao tian tian de, with a tinge of orange de!"

Ah.........

Breakfast i made for myself! Cheese melted on onion prata = yuen-made cheese onion prata!



Said i wanted to show yuxin(or was it joyce) my new sofa?
Haha. Theme: Fun! So many toy-shaped cushion! haha

Something to share before I proceed to work:

Don't stray

Don't ever go away

I should be much to smart for this

You know it gets the better

Of me sometimes

When you and I collide

I fall into an ocean of you

Pull me out in time

Don't let me drown

Let me down

I say its all because of you and here

I go Losing my control

I'm practising your name

So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right

To look you in the eye

And let all the things you mean to me

Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time

Tell you why I say its infinately true

Say you'll stay

Don't come and go

Like you do

Sway my way

Yeah I need to know

All about you

And there's no cure

And no way to be sure

Why everythings turned inside out

Instilling so much doubt

It makes me so tired

I feel so uninspired

My head is battling with my heart

My logic has been torn apart

And now It all turns sour

Come sweeten Every afternoon

Say you'll stay

Don't come and go

Like you do

Sway my way

Yeah I need to know

All about you

Say you'll stay

Its all because of you

Its all because of you

Weak lyrics but a strong melody.

Liked the way the music protrayed the longing, yet not too sad at all.

Liked the way the singer emphasized on certain words and how she drags at certain parts.

[Sway]. Not the Michael Buble but Bic Runga.

Was at National Library the whole day today. Left my house @10.15am today. Left the library @6.15pm. Nice temperature, nice surroundings, nice chair, nice height, nice scenary.
Scenary, yes. Later im going to talk about that.
Wanted to go study lounge at 5th floor. Goodness gracious. Kiasu people filled the whole lounge by 11 i think..Who says only Singaporeans are kiasu. But anyway, I'm going to live up to be a Singaporean.=) So next week i shall be kiasu and meet at 9am. Bwahah.
Proceed to 7th floor. Yeah! Nice windows! Had a enjoyable "mugging" session onwards till 2pm. Mugging has never been so "smooth" and happy since.. erhm. Great productivity. Im glad D. Full of smiles.
Went for lunch at Subway. Amazing appetite. Haha time of the month when my appetite gets amazing large. Hehe.. Deprived of subway sandwiches for so long.. Used to have cravings now and then.. And.. although no famous amos cookies.. had Subway cookies as a substitute. Ok, substitute sounds bad... But.. haha.. they are still cookies anyway.. ( dunno y suddenly got cravings for cookies) ..
Insisted on going for a stroll before going back to library cos Im so full! Btw, its parmesan oregano with cheese with lettuce and tomatoes and cucumber and honey mustard with meatballs again. Nxt time nxt time, i shall eat Subway Melt.. When i feel rich lah.
Seats were full on Level 7 by the time we got back. Took a long time patrolling between the 7, 8, 9 floors to hunt for seats before finding us a nice cosy corner!
How to explain? I LOVE tt place!
The table has the height of the bar top and so does the high swivel chair with nice adjustable backing with good damping system. Haha.. Immediately facing the window. U know u know, the window that extends all the way from ceiling to the floor. One word: Wonderful!
Yes, i LOVE tt place. And yes, its a place for mugging. I would enjoy it even more.. if its just a day with novels in my hands or laptop in front of me just surfing the net aimlessly or just chatting on msn! Haha.. Plus plus! My nano with me.
Shiok!
Joyce, nods nods head?? D
Though the view isnt at all magnificant. It just feels great to see everything so clear in front of me. Perhaps. Constraints in my hostel room? or whether its my hse ( its nobody's fault i cant have a big bungalow to live in) or whether its the ctrl lib?

Still.. I glad i felt happiness today. Its been long. Such a light hearted post.

:: to bits ::
[concentration]

Guiltily Enjoying.
Had Band Jam yesterday at RH. First time seeing Kelvin on drums. Dance uncensored on Tuesday was a *wow* thumbs up production. Liren did a great job too, at least it didn't turn out to be as gay. Haha.. so a rock climber transformed into contemporary dancer for that night.
Time to grow love, ultimate betrayal, operation green birds.... left me in awe.
( Anybody got the song, Time to Grow??)

Band Jam made us all !high! for a Thursday night. Or was it the bathroom singing session with Hazel, Eleen and Xiaoli? Haha, ~heng i left the bathroom early. Hehs. Had supper at 2 plus in the morning. That is like.. how unhealthy. Hence, *poison* concoction <>. KR supper. Up lah!
Hahas. Omelette, with chicken, with CHEESE .. something like a wrap. and CHEESE fries. STRAWBERRY milk.

Progressed with some *lame* suicide story guessing game. Stupid Eleen! Started this and made me so freaked out. Like, 3plus in the morning? Gosh. Managed to guess so many clues correctly and freaked myself out somemore. Why why, did i have such a wonderful imagination. Finally decided to give up on it and landed myself in front of the com, to find no one on msn for me to chat to. Ok, wrong timing. STILL, they started talking about horror stories. this and that. blah blah. *Trying very hard to concentrate on the things on screen, instead of listening to their stories* Haha.

Can never stand horror stories. Horror movies no kick. But stories told by the mouth seem to magnify by their degree of horror. 5am when they finally decided to give it an end. *heng ah*

What a night. Thats hall life. Thats when suddenly in the night, or rather early in the morning, u still have friends around you, pop into their room anytime and talk. Yes. Talk. Notice the difference between msn chats and room-talk. yeah yeah? Guess, its going to an end so soon.

Reality falls when i woke in the morning and realise i still have not complete my maths webcast.

I ve spend a night. Happy. Enjoyable. Yet guilty.
When when, shall the 3rd adjective not come into the picture?

Yes, an sms to Joyce: Sunday, lets go out!

<>
..wait, there's more to it.
Lets go out to mug!

A search for *antidote* <>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DSYzwhRwsqY&search=Howl%27s%20Moving%20Castle

Chanced upon this while getting super frustrated by school work.
Somehow, mood to do work came back again...

Neccessarily Evil.
Whats neccessarily evil?
Victor Tan says, Laplace Transform is.
I think. Whoever discovered Quantum Mechanics is.

Can evil be ever justified? Ponders.
What if, I am neccessarily evil too?

Had Forest of Mushroom Sphagetti when celebrating Lijuan's birthday at Cafe Cartel. Earned myself a Student Cartel Card.
But what spurred me most was the trip to NTUC that day.
So after exams... (haha this phrase has been coming out from our mouths... Meisi says after exams lets go windsurfing, Xinjia says after exams go sentosa suntan, Xiaoli and Yix says after exams lets go Partyworld/Kbox, Yix says after exams lets go Amore and use up our vouchers, Xiaoli says after exams lets go MOS, Kelvin says after exams wanna learn diving and go on diving trip not, Yuxin, Joyce, Lijuan says after exams we are going Hongkong, Xueting and Andrea says after exams lets go either Guangzhou, Taiwan or Thailand....) List is, not exhaustive.

Oh and Mel and Alex says, after exams come back Goodrich and work! and Lao Ban says after exams, when i go back.. she is going to transfer me to Quality Assurance Dept. Dont like.

Like 3 months doesnt sound enough...

After exams...
NTUC Trip: Was accompanying my mum at the fruits and vege section and i went to see my ever-favourtite mushrooms and saw Shitake and alot of weird weird mushrooms. So after exams, think i m going to try out Al Funghi on my own.. Haha.. Ct says... this is called: spontaneous.

//When u r down. When u r sad. Just turn to someone.
At least let pple know whats bothering you.
JiayouJiayou. Cos' talking does help.

I hate it when i laugh at my grades. I hate it when i am slowly getting used to lousy grades. I hate it when i laugh at my mistakes despite feeling sore over it.
I fear.
Statics test tmr. I fear.
I cant tolerate another of those U.

*Trying v hard indeed*
*Its not that i dint try*
* Yah it makes it worse tt i did try and still.... *

Life would ve been easier if u dont find too much fault in everyone around u. Note: too much = excessive. IOW, to be too insistent abt things tt theres probably no point holding on to.

-Asking for what you want-
-Showing off as an assurance that pple's attention is still on you-
-What more ways of getting attention are there-

-I've already learnt the art of agreeing while disagreeing, saying :orh, hmm to things i dont wish to comment further on,-
-Perhaps, I dont wish to give attention anymore, to pple who do things to seek attention-
- LIVE EVIL-
-I'm evil. Sigh. Its time to be true-
-Say it myself, say it everyone else-
-How many times you have done things with a hidden purpose-

::I'm not snatching, I'm not fighting. Rest larh::

V for Vendetta.
Nice show.. (haha, meisi kept thinking about the show even on the nxt day)
Caught it after our RH DnD on friday.
Went into the cinema without catching the first 10 minutes of the show. Was too lost in front.
Story got nicer as it progresses..
Hugo Weaving as V and Natalie Portman as Evi. Do admit Natalie Portman has a nice bald head. And meisi says Hugo Weaving is veh seh in the show even with his mask. Ha.

A show thats not too chim till i cant comprehend. Neither was it lame. Hmmm... a show with an implied meaning that is.
Tells us to look at things beyond the surface.
Read one of the review from the newspaper.. Apparently the critic said that the furniture used in the house and the cans (where on earth were the cans? i dont tink i saw any). But anyway, both of them were of the same brand and category..to give the viewers a feeling of suppression (cus u keep seeing the same things, till u'll feel abit fedup?). Maybe its to make the viewersfeel the same way as V and Evi, cus they felt suppressed by the British govt..

Dont understand this part. Maybe should discuss it with meisi. =)

Thou the element of love is being greatly emphasized and developed in this show.. Some parts were veh touching. The part when Evi found a note written on toilet paper in the rat-hole of her cell. When the days just moved on.. she finding strengthfrom the story told on that piece of paper. Nice one.

V for Vendetta. Fireworks.

ATTEMPTING to do my maths tutorial7.. stuck at qn 4, unsure of qn5. Din feel like pursuing and gave up. Switch to my statics online tutorial, perservered. Finished and happily came online like 1am just to input my answer into IMPARO...(okie, perhaps strike away the word "just")

And.. IMPARO failed on me. Server down. I sian down.

Passed by the field near my house..(Stipulated land for developing some HDB blocks that are going to be super ex in the future).. saw many many people flying kites there... Leisure leh! Some had picnic mats on the grass somemore.. How relaxing for a sunday evening.. =)
Recalls.. about 6 yrs ago. or perhaps even earlier.. dad n mum n sis n i cycled there (my old house were further away from the field then) and tried to fly a kite there too.. The wind wasn that great that day i think.. Kite din fly high..
Apparently today was a sunny but windy day.. Their kites flew high.

Spiritofthekite: fly against the winds not with the wind. go against all odds, overcome all obstacles.

After the exams.. Im going to that Indian restaurant at Peninsula Plaza again, go ECP to cycle or whatever...
LEISURE.

Goodness knows y.
Woke with a terrible throat today. Haven been eating heaty stuffs lately. So what contribute to the sore? Goodness knows what.
Been sneezing the time when i was out. Fever! Goodness knows y.
Popped 2 pills before taking an afternoon nap. Goodness.
Thunder clapped.. just when i was drifting into the sleep. Woke me up. Sianz.

Now, i have blocked ears and fever and sore throat.Pengz, how am i going to enjoy the Fish n Co tmr. New York Parmesan Fish n Chips leh.
Happy Birthday Joycie.

A slippery slope - dramatic illustration - hard justification

I think.
Blogging stresses my thoughts. stresses my intentions...
Most importantly..
It destresses..
Hopefully justifies the time all of you and I ve taken off from work to blog.

RE: a response to yuen's entry

[edits] 'Cause these are the moments, these are times, let's make the best out of our lives... (like this so much)
(realised) I can feel more relaxed even with strangers.

Was more than surprised to see's Joyce entry titled above.
Allowed me to see things in a different light, from a wider perspective.. A lil' more appreciation to what has happened, rather than being troubled over what might have happened, and may not neccessary be good.

Glad that she have found a turning point in her life in AH, and actually from CO. Yeah, have seen her transformed greatly ever since PAYCO and most of the time not free to go out with us because of PA committment..
I'm still looking for a turning point in my life. Searching..

Which boils down to the root, I dont think I am leading an all-rounded lifestyle now..
Have been thinking about my life thesedays, seriously in need of injections of new elements and new focus in life.
JC was busy. Breathless with CO and S papers but at least I knew what I was busy with. Stressed but happily busy. At least a balance is striked between academic and recreation.
Its like... eating, shopping are my only recreation now.. I hate this. HATE.( Ok. Running does make me a happier person.)
Doesnt contribute much to my personal development too..

I begin to..
envy people with sports training, religious committments, aesthetic practices..
because I'm sick of being.

So where has gone my enthusiasm to search for new things to explore and participate. Searching it back.. i begin to..
search for things to fill up gaps in my life and to find a better focal point in life.
I begin to.. ask my friends for suggestions and search the nus calendar of events =)

I want to be happily busy. I'm glad I'm awaken.
:: On this day,I am alive and all the world is mine::

Me: " Hey, would u choose AHS / TJC again, if life allows u to go through the process once more? "
Time: TJC Yr1 Pia-ing for Promos
Venue: Pasir Ris North/South/East/West CC Study Room (omg, sort of missing tt place now)
Involved: Me, Clement, Joyce

Forgot their replies.. but i vaguely remembered them saying:"Yes, I' ll choose them again, why?"

Somehow, its not like I have been ostracised or neglected in school.. Its not like i dont have my clique.. Its not like I cant cope with my studies... Its not like there werent happy moments to recall or moments that i enjoyed..

Its just that.. the evironment hasnt allowed me to learn much, to be exposed to different.. to know how to struggle at a younger age as opposed to now.. Its just that the environment doesnt nurture a different me from what I have always been..
U know u know.. Its like living in a safe and secure Singapore.. but yet u sometimes yearn to venture out.. thats why people go on overseas CIP trips, thats y people travel, thats why people furnish the thought of migrating.
Yet.. when u are faced with news and shots of riots and wars in other parts of the world.. u'll be glad to be borned in such a blessed place. But do you learn anything? U dont nurture a different you, or a tougher you.

I would have..
not gone AHS, not gone TJC..
Where i dont know.. not neccessary a better school.. and even a lousier school does bring me to people from more walks of life..
But yet i treasure friends I've met and made from these 2 places.

1.5 semester through university life..
1 of the thoughts that has been going through my mind since then..
Time doesnt repeat..
So, just embark on sth that yuenling doesnt think yuenling will do. My aim is not to be different, but for me to see and experience the difference..
Issit time for the embarkation now?
Lets start from sth non-NUS.

:: Its high time Singapore expands her cultural ambitons to match those of her economy::
:: Its high time YuenLing ....... ::

Back to CTW...

Had nvr really liked to spend a monday morning at home.. Yes, look at the time, and i haven been up for 3 hrs.. Monday at home = slack..
Come on, who doesnt like to slack? But what comes after that..

Yr 1 Engineering student.. who has a "slackier" timetable than me? A free monday at home.. (I would have chiong-ed for school to mug in my hall or ctl lib if I aint bugged by a tuition appointment in the evening.. trust me when i say i ll go to sch to mug :p)

Tuesday.. Now there's no more CTW lecture and im a fervent supporter of VT's "award-winning" maths lecture webcast(which means theres already no more need for me to go for LIVE mathslecture..).. and on odd/even weeks i ll have no phy n statics tutorial.. (hmm. if i plan them on the same wk), tt means on odd/even week.. I'll only have GEM lecture to attend.
OMG. Slacker timetables cultivates a slacker leh. No WaY!, so why m i here blogging.. zBleahz.

Wait! So my tuesday actually starts at 4pm? Huh....and ends at 6pm?

Wednesday.. at9am..

Thursday..No school!

Friday.. 8am to 8pm if theres is CTW in the morning..

Not to mention ive actually paid a huge sum for my hall fees.. Ouch.
Perhaps i should go look for more things to do in school..
Like?
*Blank*

Projected expenditure (compulsary) for the next few wks: 70bucks!..
See my burning pockets??
Sigh, so many obligations.. so much to entertain.
So, ive bought NISSIN TomYam cup noodles and Campbell Instant Soup to store in my room.

Yuenz the scrooge..

I do want to get out of Singapore during the holidays.
Sick of orchard, sick of TM, sick of Bugis, sick of JB, sick of city area.. Sick of.. NUS.

Been restraining on my expenditure lately.. my savings now lower than the mark i ve set for myself.. Chamz.
I m not saving for anything in particular.
Just feel that I just have to be more "stingy" with my expenditure.. Even shopping also no mood, cus I AINT gonna buy anything.
Concerts, DND, birthdays coming up.. *Scrimp and save * haah Act Poor. Hehs. =)

Eleen's moving in RH.
*The sudden thought that pops up *

Realised I ve not been asking for parent's permission to do things really.
Haha first, I've never asked them for permission to go on HK trip with my friends..in fact, i just expressed my intentions and hopes and decisions. They din oppose, they din make a noise out of it, they dint say much. *more than glad and thankful*
Secondly..My mom said that I've never asked them for permission to stay hall for the 2nd sem.Haha, i just made my own decisions. Oops, was a convenient slip of the mind. *glad and thankful again *
Thirdly, my mom says.. she has nvr agreed to me staying in hall at all,right from the beginning?
So, y m i still in hall now in 2nd sem? Haha, puzzles.
Her trust(truss!) in my limits builds the forces btwn me n her
Perhaps she is the only person whose reciprocal doesnt obey the law of mathematics..

::Who's ought to be who?::

I do want to get out of Singapore during the holidays.
Sick of orchard, sick of TM, sick of Bugis, sick of JB, sick of city area.. Sick of.. NUS.

Been restraining on my expenditure lately.. my savings now lower than the mark i ve set for myself.. Chamz.
I m not saving for anything in particular.
Just feel that I just have to be more "stingy" with my expenditure.. Even shopping also no mood, cus I AINT gonna buy anything.
Concerts, DND, birthdays coming up.. *Scrimp and save * haah Act Poor. Hehs. =)

Eleen's moving in RH.
*The sudden thought that pops up *

Realised I ve not been asking for parent's permission to do things really.
Haha first, I've never asked them for permission to go on HK trip with my friends..in fact, i just expressed my intentions and hopes and decisions. They din oppose, they din make a noise out of it, they dint say much. *more than glad and thankful*
Secondly..My mom said that I've never asked them for permission to stay hall for the 2nd sem.Haha, i just made my own decisions. Oops, was a convenient slip of the mind. *glad and thankful again *
Thirdly, my mom says.. she has nvr agreed to me staying in hall at all,right from the beginning?
So, y m i still in hall now in 2nd sem? Haha, puzzles.
Her trust(truss!) in my limits builds the forces btwn me n her
Perhaps she is the only person whose reciprocal doesnt obey the law of mathematics..

::Who's ought to be who?::

*Today's favourite song *
Haha.. yah. today.. suddenly found it very nice after listening to it repeatedly on my mp3.
Hence, searched for the lyrics..

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you

I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

*Ouch*
Only thing i felt after reading the lyrics.
How sad a song.
What a way to start a morning to a Saturday.
It shan be "the song of the day" anymore..

Perhaps friends arnd me have already known.
My amazing power of linking little little things up.. n coming up with an answer myself with imagination.
When I am silent, i think, and i imagine.
I managed to know it before lijuan told me about her n guojun 2 yrs ago. Same thing happened with yaya n jianxin.
Haha. I think I'm a spoiler myself. Fancy being so kpo about things. Cant stand myself.

Havent been "happy-ed" by small little things lately.
Aint too difficult for me to be amused by little things, though i dont say, though i might not show.
Shows how boring n mundane life has been for me lately.
Haven seen very pretty stuffs for long.. haven love at first sight with things for long.. haha

Ulu-fied YuenLing

Wanted to blog about what happened yesterday..but didnt. Hence, today =)
Went to alot of places yesterday, places that i ve nvr been to, places that i ve been to but was million of years ago. So as u proceed to read, you will realise that how ulu-fied yuenling has been for the past 19 years. Hey, andrea! for me is 19, for u is 20 now! Hehs.

Set my foot at macritchie reservoir yesterday (count: 1) . Tree top walk (Count: 1 ) Ang Mo Kio (Count: 1) Bishan (Count: 2) Jurong Point (Count: ++++) IMM (Count:2)
Treetop walk aint that WOW.. but that was what everybody had been telling me... Still, i insist on going. Perhaps, burp was right. Spontaneous. I say i want to do, !ding, i will go. Ok, lar.. its good to be away from the urban once a while.. Thumbs up =) Wonder where am i going to venture next? Haha. Pulau Ubin cycling i missed it with 17/03.. haha one day =)
Thanks to excursion teacher n yix, and where got teacher like tt sabo student in his blog one. I nothing to say leh. Literally, pengz.
Thanks to andrea! haha Brought me to Daiso@IMM, even though i dint buy anything, seeing was good enough. Had a wild goose chaaaaaase for the IMM shuttle service. Haha. first we blur blur went Boon Lay Bus interchange for the SBS Bus number that goes to IMM (we refused to walk from Jurong mrt to IMM, haha, lazy we were. ) Then, the auntie pointed in some direction, which we headed to and waited for about 15 plus minutes. C'mon, there were no signboard (no signboard crabs! haha yumz) so we were quite LOST. Tot,we were at the wrong place and when we were about the go off, the bus came! Omg. we ran n chase, fearing that the bus will go away. We were the only 2 who boarded the bus.. So weird. In the end, we realised that the pickup point was at the other side, and we had boarded at the drop-off point. DOt dot dot leh
Going home from IMM: waited for the bus at the wrong place, againz.
Blur leh.

Was on the bus 151 to sch yesterday, saw this:
apart? a part?

So, we were once a part of something. Now, apart.
A part of a clique perhaps.

Disappointment.
Real saddness sinks when disappointment overtakes.

To reciprocate.
To appreciate.
How often does this 2 words remind you to show that u need to say it as often as you should.
But I should already have known.
The reciprocal of x is alwaes smaller than x for all positive values of x greater than 1.
And I believe, my x is nvr negative or smaller than 1.
So.perhaps.thats y. i get a reciprocal smaller than x.

Freaking 9/12.
I am losing.
Either ends.

Almost slipped and fall again just now.
Was carrying my lunchbox with my maggie mee downstairs to get some hot water, so that i can have my myojo char mee pok.
Amazingly survived a day without spending any money. Was awaken by my dad this morning(cos i asked for his help to move things from RH back home) and was surprised by nasi lemak! One packet for xiaoli one for me.. sumptous breakfast. =) Got otah, fish cake, fish, drumstick...Delicious spread. So full that i didnt eat lunch today and had my mee pok char mee only at 9 plus..

Finally a burden off my shoulder. All mid terms cleared and CTW critque done.. But.. got a feeling i had a lot of wrong answers for my midterm.. esp statics. Sigh.
Somehow why do i feel that i m getting used to poor results. I dont like it that way.

Consecutive 7th day at RH... Am missing home.. My bed, my TV, my pillow, my sofa, home-cooked food and my family..

Felt v lonely at hall today.. spent the day alone at hall .. Xl asked if i would cry if i m alone in hall.. of cos i wont.. its just that.. its just difficult to keep my mouth shut.. nobody to talk to for so many hours. I wonder.. how did the DJs survived the 70-hr gag. It aint difficult.. it aint too easy either.

Realised that i had everyday of the midterm break packed with outings. OMG...
Then whats the point of carrying the books back home. Sigh.

::my watch spoiled::
::time paused when u turn ur head away::

Dumb.
Dumber n dumber.

::me::

:: Appreciation ::
Came online with the aim of doing my CTW and turns out tt checking my mail led me to the ahs2a yahoo grp.. Long-time friends..
You dont need to have many friends.. for many will be just accquaintance. Friends tt last accompany u along the path of ur life.. =)
Andrea n Ger-Yok came over yesterday.. known them for like 6 yrs? Haha.. u throw me crap, i throw u crap, u catch my crap, i catch ur crap. n we r still crapping comfortably..glad. n perhaps tts how we came up with Operation Escape-V. !!!! =) !!!!
Lijuan msged me during lecture today.. asked about Hongkong trip during term-break. Woohoo! This is power.. 12 going on 13. Yuxin.. joyce.. Onz!!?!?!?!? n hu n hu.. haha..

:: Its beauty lies in its rarity ::

"Happy-nursed" my day today.

:: she ::
:: is hard to please ::

Whatever/Whoever got me started thinking about Valentine's day.
Thinking.
May it be posts frm pple's blog..taziron's nick.. random jokes between xiaoli and me.. books tt ive been reading.. okie, and lotsa lotsa advertisement regarding vday..
plus xiaoli's constant reminder about her 3 other girl friends coming over to our room to stayover on vday.. makes me wonder should i jump over to KR tt night.
Got me thinking how about how vday has evolved frm.. sec 1 sec 2 sec 3 sec 4 giving each other presents.. the thoughtfulness of going to buy sweets n chocs for everyone and wrapping them all up in nice cellophane paper and writing nice cards..
frm.. jc 1 n jc 2, perhaps.. sweets and chocs still there.. but somehow it felt different.
n now.. taziron's nick. Ha.

:: missing someone ::
:: at every turn n bend, u hope the person will miraculously appear::
:: at the ring of the phone::
:: on the alert of an sms ::
:: on the sign-in of your msn contacts ::
:: upon sign in of msn, scroll down to the correct grp and starts searching with hope ::
:: hope glimmers, hope shatters ::
:: shining shining::
:: does the fire gets re-fueled? often enough to keep u going?::
:: a roller coaster ride they say::
:: to experience the downs so tt u can appreciate the ups::
:: u dream n smile like no one else's business except his/hers::
:: u cry and frown. its no one else's business. its not his/hers. its urs::
:: silly::
:: crazy::
:: at the end of the day. at the second before clock ticks twelve::
:: u count ur blessings ::
:: afterall .. who do u link your blessings with ::
:: friends , family and then? ::

Who's feeling am i describing now?
Why am i writing all these whatever?
Whatever/Whoever that got me thinking about Valentine's Day, i say.

I really wan to go overseas for a short trip. for a holiday.
she's thinking and wishing and hoping again.
Feel like going aus n hk once.. Din rmb me enjoying myself much the last time there..
Or perhaps, thailand will do larh.
Or perhaps, msia lah
genting lah.
haha...
oops.
i forgot all about taiwan..