Not many people online today, guess they are mugging bah? Not like me, i have slacked for the whole day and i am. Dont know. I just feel very lost about my june common test. I dont seem to be familiar with the things i have studied and i dont feel secure with my maths because i dint practise.

Thank you joyce and yinjie for listening to me when i freaked out just now. A freak-out is common before every major exam but this time round is getting too early. 2 days before the actual day and i am panicking. Haiz, goes to show how unprepared i am. I shall go mug again.

Can a miracle happen before me?

I really dont know what to blog about today. I just had a normal mugging day and my usual "know something new about clement everday". Maybe i should record down what are the new discoveries each day and one day i shall give that record for him to see. Oh ya say so much and i havent even point out what's my discovery today! He is a good host, joyce and me felt so "guest-ly" during his home visit and he treated us to Clement-brand lemonade and chocz! Thank you clement even though i know u dont read this.. I think i cant live without my family and friends! Love? Shrugz..

Was explaining to beeshin my theory about blogs. Now that i have come one big round from a private blog to a sort-of public blog, i have come to realise the idea of a blog is rather ironical. First a blog is an online diary and arent diaries supposed to be private and personal? So unless u do set a password to your blog, its rather public and open and maybe it does not serve its purpose as a diary le. Now, i feel rather weird and superficial with my entries. Not to say i dont enjoy people looking at what i have been through each day but it just makes blogging more dry and just about the activites that took place each day. Shrugz. Y the sudden idea?

:: i wun put myself in tt kind of misery. I have brains k? ::

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Sunset. Taken dont know where.. But its nice 

Shangri La was not very exciting and not very boring. Huh? What am i talking about? But i enjoyed it though. I mean it wasnt really the activities that kept the fun going on but rather it was the interaction within our exco and with the seniors(esp chongtang) as well.

Oh ya i was complaining i dint have a bag to bring along to sentosa because none of them can contain the amount of things i want to bring there! In the end, i ended up using the same bag that i took to camp 04. The big black bag! It was a free gift from Wacoal (oopz is that how u spell it)! I guessed nobody knew, now u all know~ Hehe. Afterall, the logo on the zip was so inconspicuous.

When we reached there, eunice yujun and rosie met us at the visitors centre and we paid $3 for the admission fee. I guess the attractions on the island arent even to keep the maintenance of the island going and so the admission fee is neccessary. And if u do notice, most singaporeans go sentosa just for the beach! And the beach is free! Haha.

We went directly to our rooms? room? in ShangriLa then yujun said we only have 1 room so i kind of like puzzled. Coz the day before, i smsed Changsheng and asked him about our accomodation and i remembered clearly that he said there were 2 rooms! plus he added that they were quite big~-_-?? Yeah, i am sure i have a lot of question marks floating above my head. I was puzzled~blur~. Then, so it turned out that Junji does have 2 rooms-1 exe suite and 1 normal room, and yujun dint knew about it at first. But we have to wait for the occupants for the exe suite to vacate before we can move in so we all gathered in the smaller room first and there were people of different batches. I was still feeling puzzled, maybe because i dont know the majority of them there and i felt weird. haha, i m sure alot of u feel the same way though..

Then off we went to Palawan Beach, they played beach volley and joyce yuxin jas beeshin and i went straight in the waters. Haha played alittle den weileong and clement came to join us. I felt weird afterall our attire arent quite correct, some translucent and our shirts keep "floating" up. Something made us feel out of place- our attire. Because we arent in any skimpy tops haha odd 5 out. But i dont care, its just a psychological barrier whether or not i dare to wear those bikinis.. Haha, maybe not those stringy types? But rather those tt resembles sports bra? Haha!

Oh then after that we went back hotel room to bathe before joining them for the bbq. At the bbq, there wasnt much food and poor clement, was bbq-ing? Oh everyday i learn something new about him. One day i shall know a new clement right in front of me. To my surprise the chicken wings actually turned out nice but it wasnt enough for such a glutton like me! So off i went to 7-11 and grabbed a pizza bar. (wasnt very nice thou)Haha yah then we crapped gossiped laughed and talked all the way we realised its time to go back to our hotel because it is a whole 1/2 hour journey. And i bought sandwich and sweets! Piggy~

Then, i tried to do some maths in the night, talked sometimes, listened sometimes, stoned sometimes.. And i slept for 1 hr... frm 6am to 7am! Haha! And yujun said she see me always putting food in my mouth through out the whole night! Haha i think so too..

Theres something that left me quite an impression throughout the whole stay. Chongtang seems a very different guy now. Its just the gut feeling and sixth sense of girl. NS has done him bad, both physically, economically and mentally. Dont know but i actually feel very bad for him because hes a totally changed guy (maybe its for the better) but its very tough on him. Well, not on him only but hes the only one so far who told me all those about NS. They drink chlorinated water and the chlorination is actually to that extent that the flower actually bleached after being watered by the NS water for few days! Gosh, how had his body suffered, tekan-ed by the water? N his voice, spoiled. But i think it sounds nicer!? Haha, but he cant sing nicely with this new voice le..=( And then emotionally? Once he think of him staying there for the next 2 years of his life is already tt saddening. Economically? Afterall, the hp that held so much memories of his life was stolen in tekong.. Hmm.. take care ct!

Okie, today went ah ma house for dumplings and i ate a lot! Combining dinner and lunch, i ate 5 dumplings!!!!! - 2 small 3 big ones.. Piggy~ But to make up i ate alot of fruits also, watermelon, lemon, lychee, grapes.=)

:: a wait of 7 daes doesnt matter if i lengthen or shorten it by 1 dae. Its insignificant ::

Shangri La @ Sentosa! 

I wouldnt be able to blog tonight because i ll be spending the night over at Shangri La hotel in sentosa. Its my first time staying over in sentosa, wonder how it will feel like mugging the way through the night? But i figured, i dont think i will stat awake all night to study, because it will be at the expense the other day, in other words, means i wont have the energy to study on Sunday because i mugged whole saturday night. ^_^ Do i sound enthusiastic about mugging?

Staying overnight in sentosa actually got my mum quite uptight. It boils down to her staying overnight in sentosa some 20 years ago when i m still dont know where? She says she stayed in some eerie chalets or houses in sentosa that used to be occupied by the British soldiers during the Jap Occupation. The "chalets" were supposed to be places for soldiers to recuperate. And of course, they do die sometimes. N i think she had some eerie encounter that she refused to tell me.

So she was kinda worried if i was staying there and i reassured her no! haha. Then i smsed changsheng about the accomodation and he said they booked 2 rooms in Shangri La! Wonderful!

Ok, in less than 2 hours i ll be meeting the exco for fish and chips. Rather guilty about not having lunch at home coz my dad wanted me to eat the mee goreng that hes going to cook. Sigh. Or maybei ll juz observe them eat fish and chips? Plus i m very full now~

Okie. shangri la here i come.

hope the small words can be seen.. i m just testing out.. no matter what. i still think this is meaningful.. 

Argh! It really is too small! Okie, I shall go study now. Enough fiddling around

Yeah!

Yeah!I did something to my blog today! Thanks rebecca for helping me with the archives and photo-posting stuffs! I wouldnt have the slightest idea how to do them without her help. I am a html dummy!

Okie, woke up at 9.18am today and off i went to SSCC to meet Rebecca to study. I dint feel as guilty today as i did for the past few days. Although today dint study much, but i finished the heavier chapters. To be exact, i havent finish SEXUAL REPRODUCTION yet but when i complete them tonight, its a great relief. Coz it is really a whole lot.

Then we went Mac for lunch today! Cuz there was nothing to eat. Eh, no, not nothing to eat, but nothing is within my budget.Yah, then continued mugging. And rebecca commented that i seemed to be mugging happily. Oh well, she is sort of correct because i dont get frustrated easily when studying and i looked peaceful without much fidgeting around? Haha, well, to do things well is to do things happily.

Then, we took neoprints, to satisfy rebecca's craving. What an expensive thing to get hooked on. Hmm i m poor! Oh well i got sort of bluffed by the machine again coz we dint have the time to decide on the size of the prints and it came out small. How wasted, i wanted it come out as 8 big prints. But, yep it was nice =)

Then went subway, had turkey breast ham and then walked home! Can you believe it? Oh ya, rebecca, i recalled, its not the first time i m walking home from the interchange. It was 2nd time, the first time was with jianxin when doing pw. Haha, in case xiuyi does frequent my blog, dont kill me when you see this. :p

Okie i m satisfied with the changes to my blog now. =)i shall continue mugging. I m glad the mood has come =) Finally. But late is better than never.

And i concluded my day using only 4 smses! Yeah! =)21st is coming soon. Will i be using alot of smses again? Hmm..let heaven decide! =) (so many smiley faces in my entry this time, can see how light hearted i am now)

:: wish upon a shooting star. wish come true . happy ending ::

my baby photo! 

hey juz testing

I am not in a very good mood today.

I put on weight that i have lost for the past few months. 1kg! I feel super sian about this and to think i gain this weight like, erm just in a day? Cuz when i weigh myself it wasnt tt weight. OK sigh how superficial do i sound lamenting about how much weight i have gained overnight? Very. But the fact is i am already not thin, so everything kg counts!

Have been studying with yuxin everyday for the past few days. And this girl there has a great metabolic rate, you can practically hear her say she is hungry always. N me? not resisting the temptation of food will munch together with her. Haiz, okie i shall diet, friends, curb my diet too!

Why have my emotional quotient gone so low. I used to have great concentration span, resisting the temptation of sleep, resisting the temptation of the internet and FOOD! oh gosh, now i have become a girl so susceptible to these temptations..

Today went studying in co room, and OM came in, scold us.. Haha.. i feel differently from joyce and yuxin lehz. They sound.. as in their tone, sounded bu shuang, in their blog.. using words like "Hey" and "hello!?!". But somehow i did feel guilty despite i feel that sometimes the OM is getting too overboard in his control over college things. No matter what, we did know we cant use the co room for studying and cannot on aircon de. haiz. Hmm.. maybe i need to clear something. I m feel guilty we r committing a mistake when we knew the mistake beforehand. But, its really puzzling... OM needs to chap so many things? But afterall is his job bah, i shall not marry an OM nxt time, he will be cursed by each and every student in the school.. (Y m i thinking so far in the first place..)

And yep, mugging is still at a slow pace. And i have to give up 2 days of studying for exco outing to sentosa and grandma house. I do sound like a mugger now. I dont care people say i m a mugger. What matters is i m a mugger during exams but yet a player at suitable times, isnt it?

Okie, my mum let me chose, digicam or hifi set? I dont know also, i feel guilty spending money. -_-

:: i lost the motivation. I dont even recall where my motivation used to come from::

A Day Without Much Missing =)

Wow~ i realised... that giftland actually still exist in singapore! haha.. arent i glad, i want to go there after JCT and not forgetting the fish n chips at arcade that i promised to bring joyce to.

There are just way too much stuffs that i want to do after jct. All thanks to dreaming too much in the day while studying. Its no wonder i call my blog "daydreamz". I figured sometimes i really i daydream too much and think too much.
1) "Enchanted Ella" the movie
2) Fish and chips at the arcade
3) Go jurong point i want to go giftland
4) Buy presents
5) Handover ceremony

A whole lot of enjoyable things to do after JCT but they will usually go unaccomplished. I believe there are still things that i said i want to do but now i just cant remember. Hmmm..

1 more chapter to end of electricity then i shall start diligently on my biology. hope that i can do this today? Yeah, jiayou yuenling. I know you have been slacking hard. Its been hard on you slacking on one hand yet scolding yourself on the other hand. Stop this misery and really study. Keep focused.

Oh and i realised dumpling's festival is so near! Its on 21st of june. Now, this date does sound familiar. Haha!~ And I promised my mum to go to my grandma house that day..

Tata..

:: Buy a bed ::

i dunno how i m feeling now. juz weird.. i wanna study.. i can concentrate at times.. but sometimes thoughts drift so far awae frm me..

i keep tinking about the 3 gals tt u told me. u sae i shld be honoured cuz i m by the far the only one who gets to know all 3? i dunno wad do i have tt takes u so easily to tell me all 3. tell u wad. i thought i cld heck care about the three of them coz they r juz ure crushes. seriously i really felt those tings u were toking to me about them r crap. tts wad u told me b4 too.. but i definitely believe tt ur previous 2 experiences are definitely true n u have been hurt.

but i never knew this until i daydreamt todae.. how did u get to know the 1st gal. some nite. i was present too..haiz.. all the clues tt u gave us previously all fit so perfectly into her. so u observe her to tt extent boy. should i call u bian tai? all the cardcaptor sakura and all those stuffs about watching stars at nite. i shld have known it long ago. its not the first dae i ve known u..

but now ive fallen. i shld tink positively.. afterall crushes are still crushes! but still? hey i started frm a crush too.. but i m still glad u told me.. thou i noe i m still falling deeply in. ger.. buck up.

okie. now u r in msia.. i really hope i can concentrate studying.. i m so inaccurate cuz i m missing u. like heaven shld i sae.. each sms beeps.. all my hopes surfaces.. all my hopes dashes.. how possibly can it be tt u ll msg me in msia. not when i m juz someone whom u slightly craps more with. not when i m juz someone hu u will pour ur woes into. we r juz somewhat pple call zhi ji.. tts wad u told me.. someone u tell alot of tings to.. friends? =) okie i shall not be greedy.

oh ya.. todae went tamp north cc to study todae.. quite unproductive sia.. according to my timetable i shld be ermz.. finsihing my phy le. but i m not.. hmmph! haha i had a sudden craving for fish n chips todae n so it became my lunch.. haha spending so much money.. on food!?! hmm yet unhealthy yet expensive.. induldging myself in food? cuz i m stressed? all i noe is tt i ve been slacking since the holidays begin..

n i dled the hello kitty farm game le.. seems like its more difficult playing using my phone duno y also.. seems like playing it on ur phone is more fun.. hmm..

n.. theoretical example n hypothetical example is different i wanna tell u. theoretical is already proven to be true in terms of theory but not neccessary true in experiment.. but hypothetical is still untrue in terms of everything.. so when u sae u giving me a theoretical example tt u like me.. i wana tell u tt u ve used the wrong word. but i juz cant bear to dash my dreams..

oh gosh y did i blog so long todae.. told u le.. study dun study in the dae tink too much.. accumulate at night to blog.. ahah.

:: i ll be inaccurate. i m missing u like heaven and earth. wad if i sae i bother now, wads done is done. i already told u i dun bother::

can u play with the colours of the wind...

this song has been ringing in my head since i went home frm kbox.. hey it was fun considering it was my first attempt singing ktv. ahah!..

i ve jus realised maybe all i ve been doing is juz crap.. n i cant get myself on to mug.. ! argh i m so frustrated with myself.. i wanna be a mugger.. yuenling mug.. quick!

i m tired.. at its only 12 noon!.. haha landuo to have long blogs lehz.. no inspirations also..

juz beginning to wonder..when u actually cared to sae sorry to a person.. is he or she beginning to gain a teeny weeny bit of place in ur heart.. or is "sorry" juz a word too often used till its meaning has been diluted.. or even become devoid of its meaning? if its the latter case.. how sad.

he's going msia tmr.. for 7 daes.. oh gosh. i THINK i shall be able to concentrate for the nxt 7 daes? i hope..


:: sorry. u r breaking ur record. 5 sorries in a dae ::

hmm.. funny feeling.. 2 windows on msn.. both toking about exco thingy. but one is on exco 03/04 one is 04/05. hmm..

dunno lehz..had this very mixed feeling after breaking camp todae.. dunno yar. okie first tok about starting of camp.. hmm i had this v blur mindset when i went for the camp i really din noe wad to do n it was during tt v dae tt i noe wad game im incharge of n everything. felt bad cuz i din went for the meeting n thus din noe wads happening..

yar so i was the station master for capstan grape.. hmm haha .. first grp hu came was quite "cold".. as in no really alot of voice when playing the match... only i noe carol was superb in catching the grapes using the cup.. like statue of liberty haha..but later on the game "warmed" with other groups.. haha mingwei had me laughing like mad becoz of his hokkien haha.. so funny..

oh yah. RITARDS.. love ya.

hmm den it was a quite crazy decision for us to stay awkae the first nite when we have urban hike the nxt dae!?! i only slept for 1 hr!!! haha but apparently.. wasnt v tired during the urban hike.. cuz xuguang was v entertaining.. n cannot deny he has inborne leadership qualities.. headcounting n bonding.. self-numbering.. n encouraging motivating the grp.. singing along the wae was superb.. =) he has the charisma too..
oh ya. xu guang fanclub officially founded on 8 june 2004

n the urban hike was quite alrite unitl the end lar. cuz we ended up running chionging.. v tiring ya noe.. yr 1s are yr1s .. younger mar. more engery..haha

hustings was peacefuly.. v not hiong not harsh not strict.. in fact got laughter lo. n crazy lar.. i fell asleep a little while during wenjie's turn sorry!. but the focal point was out too. i cant concentrate.. haha wanna see the comment sheet? it consisted of completed sentences initially n towards to the end.. incomprehendable phrases tt popped out of nowhere

new exco 04/05 .. i had great impression.. high expectatons of them.. strong com. yar they v united the minute they were announced.. yar. was so impressed n touch..hmm but i din cry ar. infact i teared at different time..

i was v gan dong for clement when rachel praised clement in frnt of the whole co. really lo. first time see him so serious about planning something.. first place so early reach sch.. first time stay so late till the nite.. n yar. marvellous clement. thou u cant see this ... was so proud of clement so gan dong abt the june camp n everything.. n thankful of clemetn also. so my eyes went red. haha yar.. so quiet quiet look at floor..

had another mass phototaking session.. like superstars..!

:: stepping stone to ultimate living is SHARED happiness ::

i wanna remember todae. i wun want to forget wad happen.. =)

heehee.. ydae i said i wanna go somewhere tt i nvr go b4 one so he can bring me there.. in the end he suggested a whole list of shopping malls.. all either too far or too small.. in the end we ended up in airport. he promised to bring me go some part of airport ive nvr been too..

hmm..was actually meeting at tamp control at 12 but in the end last min he msged me to take bus 27 directly.. haha n i was late.. i call him to board the 27 tt i m on directly.. ya.. so i was sitting beside him.. haah i realised something.. both of us din dare to tok into each other eyes at first.. but towards the end of the ride.. we crapped n crapped so not v mo shen le.. =).. wad did we crap? haha bout his slippers.. my future boyfren..

den we alighted at T1.. walked all the way to T2. cuz i dun wanna take the skytrain.. not exciting mah. haah so we walked.. he brought me to some passageway.. got offices one.. looked like an aisle of the hospital.. haah nobody one.. v quiet.. quite eerie if u r alone thou.. den he starting saying dunno wad if got monster jump behind den dunno wad.. hhaa crap!.. n he counted the no. of toilets along the "tunnel" to T2.. got 7!> haha. *lame* i also forgot wad we crap about le.. juz alot..

den hmm walk.. halfwae.. den realised the construction blocked the passagewae!.. HAAH we were stranded.. so we ended up walking up n down those deserted stair case to reach a car park.. haha seriously.. only he noes how to walk.. i juz followed.. nalong the wae had to remind him i m not walking v fast n he has to slow down.. =)..

oh ya. he told me there are 2 major defects in his body . 1) flat foot 2) alternate breathing nostrils.. means he use only1 nostril to breathe eachtime.. does this remind u of zhiqin? hahaz..

okie lar. todae he considered got feng(1) du (4) le.. got hold door for me.. reached early den wad we r supposed to meet.. hmm .. happy..

oh ya. den we reached T2 den go staff canteen.. he eat lo i din eat. i onnly drank the sugar cane he bought ..=) i was playing his hp game attentively..

den go back tm watched harry potter.. we took 27 back again.. den he sae we were sitting back at the same seat.. tt one i really din notice thou.. haahz.. but too bad its not at left side of the bus.. he keep wanting to noe y.. but i wun tell him.. bleah..

we reached early thou.. so we go look for his slipppers lo.. really nothing nice.. haah so in the end nvr buy also.. den ya go cinema. share popcorn.. actually is he eat 7/8 of it i ate only 1/8 of it.. ahah sore throat ma. i cant finish my dirnk also.. haha he v funny.. wanna cop my drink also dun wan let me noe. call me conc in watching the movie den he pour into his cup..pls.. i m juz beside!. hahaz..

n the movie.. haha not v climatic thou. i mean dun really hav climaz like tt.. haha.

den aftertt i go buy breadtalk.. den like ttloz. summary. v long one thou..
off i go to dance concert..
congrats tj modern dance club for their wonderful show!

:: xin fen. ji dong. excited ::

am going out to watch harry potter later.. they sae its nice.. m looking forward to it. but wad if later i dun hav anything to tok to him.. awkward it ll be...n hor..i still cant persuade him to get rid of his slippers.. haha.. n i ll have to wear lan lan to pei he him.. hahaz...

meetin him at 12.. n its 11.05.. still dun wanna go prepare still dun wann go bathe.. wads wrong.. haha i v landuo.. suddenly feel v lost.. really tinking wad to do when i see him.. we r going airport.. weird huh.. go le eat le. den come back tamp watch harry potter.. den off i ll go to dance concert.. haven buy flower yet lehz.. lijuan.. go pluck off some frm your biao jie engagement place.. haha..

okie.i guess i shall be off.. otherwise i tink i ll be rushing later.. haha.. still so full.. how to eat lunch..

::harry potter, anticipation::

~ cheer up rachel.. i ll like to see ya with wonderful expressions on ya face. ur madness. craziness.. ur expressions alwaes giving pple a direct attachment to exclamation marks.. its not u now. maybe u do need a rest. a break.. but we do really hope to see rachel!!! back with us =)

haiz. love is a mystery.. it has hurt pple.. but y do we willingly engage ourselves in them.. cuz it brings joys too.. :: love is like a roller coaster ride ::
a one sided love is the worse type of love anyone can experience.. esp if u r the one liking him/her with no conditions attached.. with indefinite sacrifications.. but wad ya get is juz a fren to fren relationship.. or worse still.. a pure fren conversation.. with his/her heart attached to the other..

wad can the worse thing happened? it has happened to me.. my good frens somemore.. wad did i chose to save myself? time. cruelty. escapism. friendship. another love.

now tt the last soln has come to me.. i ve plunged/gotten into/fallen into another love. again. one-sided love. how sad it might be? how devastating the conclusion might be? it has been a constant fear always..

but pple do fantasize.. thou chances r slim.. but wadeva everything little thing means much to me.. y do i miss him when he juz disappears for 10 mins? cuz i m not his. he is not mine. everything is insecure.. its only when u cant get something tt u learn to treasure it more.. how humanity degrades humans.

okie.. end of the sad part.. haha we tok on phone last nite wor.. happy. yepz. urban hike we tok more wor.. i m getting more n more daring to tok to him le.. i wonder..

:: afterall.. friendship hatred n love revolves round only a circle..when ya like someone to the extent.. it can become a hatred.. when hatred resolves friendship comes in.. for the opp sex.. friendship's ultimate is love::