Disappoinment yesterday.
Hopes for today.

Accidentally stumbled upon this picture minutes ago.. It looked so peaceful, so nice. But i doubt its real, must be effects from photoshop.

Just had my 3rd biology practical test this morning. Haha, whats worth mentioning is that each time i have a bio prac test, i ll have free buffet lunch (leftovers though). 1st time was during national day celebrations, finished our prac and helped ourselves to the food. Today, the cleaner actually approached us. So good. Free, can save money somemore.. =)

Bought a gardenia loaf today. Focasccia bread if thats how to spell it. Made from herbs and olive oil.. I shall make myself a sandwich, haha later!?! Anyway,the bread smells real nice.

Now, i am really considering about overseas studies. My mum sort of allow le, but i am only considering australia or NZ i guess.. Hmm, well that is if i can get the scholarship. But shrugz, what am i going to study? I have no confidence in medicine anymore, i guess its just not the passion, if not, why does the length of the course frightens me? It just occured to me that maybe i should take physics? Wow. A total 180degrees turn from biology. However, most organisations are more interested in economics students.. Well, afterall every company needs a financial department but not every company require a research and development dept. Hmm.. alright, maybe i am sure unsure. Okie, its not maybe , it should be i am unsure. I am not so keen about overseas education sometimes, things have their pros and cons. Just cant find the passion, the purpose..

:: its less than a month away::

Peaceful beach.. thou i doubt is real.. 

Cannot make it.
Numbed by tutorials? Wah, who's got that ability? Me lor.
I want to go out! I have been home for whole 3 days this long weekends. Cooped at home. Not that i dont want to go out. If somebody jolly well ask me go out ydae? today? I would have agreed. Bored to tears. Guess i have been utilising every sms i can. Bored. To the bones.

Even when 2 birds flew into my living room, i got scared and screamed. At least it made me less bored. Hilarious? Yah, i think so. Why twins effect is out on 12 Aug? I would have gone to watch.. erm.. ydae if it was launched yesterday. But its money again. Did i mention? I have to bring 60 dollars to school for class fund and grad night deposit. Ouch.

:: _____ to the core, to tears and to the bones. Fill in the blank ::

I have been feeling grouchy lately. Sorry to those whom i have ignored, scolded, harsh to for the past week. Dont know whats gotten into me, just dont feel like talking or making any sound at times. Just felt like keeping quiet sometimes, stone, dream, think and sleep.

But feeling quite alright now, in view of the long weekend ahead. Although i know its going to be a mugging weekend AGAIN, it just feel good to escape from the revision tests and practicals going on, TEMPORARILY. Realised its a very vulnerable period for many of us. Once stress sets in, everyone gets so vulnerable. If u scold me now, i tink i ll just break down into tears, or scold you back. Its better to be able let things out than to keep them all inside i think.

Just bought Jay's cd, that is so nice. Personally, i think thats just his style and i like it so much. Realised there usually arent any happy songs in his albums, all the non-rap songs are talking about parting, regretting and stuffs like that. There arent any songs that explicitly talk about couples being in love and stuffs like that. However, the MVs sometimes display otherwise. How come huh? I wonder.. Hmm, track 2 and 6 are so nice.. they're my fav on the cd, for the time being.

I have been wanting to eat katong laksa, indian food, try durian pastry for soooo long le. Still, havent got the chance to satisfy my crave. Argh, guess that ll be months later le right. And, twins effect II coming out on 12 Aug, feel like watching but yet subconciously, i forbid myself. Contradictory.

Oh ya, for those swensens ice cream lovers, there's a promotion going on, in celebration of Singapore's 39th birthday. The topless 5, usually priced at $6.5, is now priced at $1.39.++ 15% GST and serv charge. Haha, the good thing is no minimum purchase is required. Valid only on wk days (i tink) and dine-in customers. Dont know when this promotion will be on till though. In case you are wondering why i know those details, yep, i ate it today. While i appear to be so enthusiastic about this promotion, my family seems to be so indifferent about it. They dint show any signs of interest when i told them about it leh. Weird.

:: Vulnerability of Life <-->Permeability of stress ?? Double ended arrow, equilibrium has to be achieved ::

haiz, another wasted day.. Its not wasted because nothing happened, in fact, too many things happened.. Huizhen's birthday party, Physic DE test, JTS, Temasek IP Openhouse.. Today was so packed till i dint have time to do any tutorials, thus feeling super guilty now.

I still have alot of tutorials to clear before i can start revising. (Thats basically all subjects!) 1) Physics: Buoyant, Viscous, Non-viscous. 2) Maths: Loci and Complex Misc 3) Bio: Control of flowering 4) Chem: Transition, Grp 2 Grp 7... 3 words: Die Liao Lor! But maybe i should really start while clearing my tutorials? Multi-tasking, how skilled am i? Still quite devastated over the fact that i am going to have Prelims S Paper.. My Maths S how? Each time i sit down and tries to plan the study timetable, i am so lost. Time is running short, 4 weeks to prelims? Or even shorter? Scared, i dint dare to count despite the constant reminders from tutors.

Have been staying back in school, to study in the library.. self-grounding till 7.30pm. This will have to continue, otherwise i ll just doze off while doing tutorials at home, esp in the afternoon.. But, i only have 2 wkdays afternoons to afford each week,Monday and Thursday... Thats how pathetic my timetable is.

The past week was a disastrous! 8 tests! How did i survive? Scrape through everything lor, dint study for all of them in detail, after all the concepts are there means there are there le mah. Whats there to study? Oopz, its this constant thinking in my mind that makes me want to slack everytime. I have to abolish this thinking.

3 persons have commented on my face for the past week. They say its so pale, even paler than before. But well, Ms Wong say i will be better after A's.. I certainly will! Duh..

:: Press on, Hang on ::

Did i mention blood donation drive 2004 @ tjc? yeah, u are right.. i donated my blood.

Of 9 who went forward to donate, only 3 from our class managed to pass all the blood tests and etc, to go till the donating bed (do u call the bed tt? haha..shrugz) and have your arms injected with needles. They are its not fine, you can actually see the capillary bore. But i still dint dare to see, even though its my 2nd donation le. Some of my friends blood pressure too low, some went on holiday and thus rejected as a donor, some cant pass the haemoglobin count test, some veins too fine and thus unable to locate them. Haha, all sorts of reasons.. My veins were too fine too, then the trainee nurse dint dare to attempt and called upon the experienced nurse. Whee, heng ar! I cant imagine the trainee nurse poking in and out of my arm searching for the vein. N.. the experienced nurse got it at 1st attempt.. =) Experience  does matter..

Oh ya, i was quite surprised when the nurse said my haemoglobin count was high, as in, good. Reason, because i hate pork. If i can avoid eating pork, i avoid and pork is supposed to be rich in iron isnt it? Or maybe at least the liver? Which i hate so much.. Maybe because i keep eating fish in place of pork.. Hmm.. fish rox

I felt happy after donating blood. Feel kind of light. As in, not physically light but emotionally light - glad. Felt that i have done a good deed, indeed it is. =)

She seems weird, did i do something wrong. I hope i dint i dun tink so. =(

 

Wah.. out of touch with so many things.. I dint come online for like, erm, so so many days... No longer felt the urge to online.. Its kind of now then i realised i have been out of touch with so many things, my friends (not meaning those in my class of course), my juniors, entertainment, music and everything else. Guess its just the period of time when studying really comes in..
 
Every week is such a busy week, once i reached home, i ll have to chiong my tutorials, and to prepare for every revision tests and practical. Alright, its just self-discipline to prepare for those tests and pracs, but what the point of doing them without preparing them in the first place? Sitting in the lecture theatre copying? Or maybe not.. dreaming bah. So its kind of i have condition myself to that kind of life le. Quite a sad life, but .. no choice?
 
Have been out of touch with my friends, i dint come online and i dint sms them, dont know how they been getting thesedays.. Haha, i lost interest in Ella Enchanted too, i actually dint want to go watch it when i was like jumping for it a month ago? Shrugz. Dont know what happened. And in the end did yuxin they all catch the movie? I also dont know.. Shrugz.
 
Ooo, just heard it from my dad that my sms for the last month exceeded 360 again.. Haha, this month wont le. I am sure.
 
Now i am having second thoughts for performing for the ndp, not that i dont want to perform but i dont want to go for the pracs when i have every countable test the day after each day. Okie, by then you should know how stressed by work i was for the past week or 2. Wanna become hermit yuenling le.
 

Its such a chore to blog today. My arms hurt even when typing, brushing my teeth, carrying my bag, tying my hair... Okie, in short, it hurts all the time. Blame it on the TJ PE department. In addition, i having my headaches again.. Haiz. AGAIN!

Still feeling lethargic about everything around me. Nothing seems to make me real happy, real sad or real excited. Haha, just "lidat lor". I have nothing to say about the handover or should i say i was still feeling very tired after chiong-ing through 1 hr 40 mins ( maybe even more) of Biology structured questions? haha, felt so cheated by the Bio department when i saw the paper.. -_-

This week seems to pass very slowly, dont know why also, though i am still dutifully doing my tutorials every night.. i still feel time passes very slowly.. It seems that i am passing each day without any meaning, just "lidat lor".. This cant go on forever, girl. I am just feeling too heck-care about alot of things.. Too many things at the back of my mind, which i m too afraid to dig them all out.. Maybe tts the cause of my headache? Crapz.

Everyday seems like a show. A show for myself. Hide every ugly and dislikes at the back of my mind, spending each day like its so PEACEFUL..

:: question marks ::

What a freaky 46 for my gp. Haiz.. I am no longer secured. Feels so haiz everytime i have to write an essay..

A Day of Arghz!

Arghz. Just got the information from joyce that the A for Physics is 72.. I missed by 2 marks, what the ... Ke xi.. So now, i will only have 1 A from Biology. Haha, to be happy or not to be happy. To many, maybe having an A is already good enough, but.. but.. how should i say, i am not happy. Not that sad, its just disappointment. As compared to my year 1 JCT, Promos, MCT, its a big drop. I shall buck up. I have always believed that apart from all the hard work, exam luck is neccessary. Its so unfair to assess the student's ability through a single paper. What if he just cant understand the particular phrasing of that question but he actually know all the concepts well? What if he just used pencil to draw instead of pen? (ok, i am still thinking about my organic chem question, cos tt mark means a grade to me -_-) What if that day he is just isnt himself? What if he is just that careless? Ok, a whole lot of "what if"s, and then the blame lies on the student again. He shldnt have mental block at that critical time, he shldnt use a pencil, he shld have been more careful.. A whole lot of "should have"s...

Arghz.The seniors cancelled the jts again. Pissed? Not pissed, just sian 1/2. Realised i feel very lethargic lately, dont even have the energy to feel very sad or angry or have strong feelings about anything. Oh please, can we just get it over and done with, i already see no point in having the jts 1 year behind schedule. It just feels weird dont you think so.. Frankly, i dont think many of the 03/04 exco have much to say to their senior batch. To think its already a year ago le. Maybe not all but.. haiz. Just ke(4) tao(4) hua(4). Maybe its just critical of me to think that maybe the poor attendance is just they dont feel like coming and not because of tight schedules. K, i mean some of them. Cannot yi zhu gan da fan zhen chuan ren... But, its been so many times, why are the year 2s free-er than them? I cant help but doubt.

Arghz. Shopping alone doesnt feel good. Cancelled the jts and lijuan, joyce and me got stranded in chinatown? Okie, maybe not lijuan cos she have her own " entertainment", maybe not joyce cos she is rushing down to PA. !!Amendment: In the end, i got stranded in Bugis. Alone. Sian. And yinjie ate her lunch le so cant accompany me to the Indian restaurant. Sighx. Rebecca seems to be sleeping when i called her.. So i walked alone around Bugis.. Okie, the blames lies on JTS again, i could have happily gone to the Indian restaurant with yinjie and then shun bian buy the handover presents..

Arghz. Spent quite a great deal on the presents for my juniors and Abelyn. I couldnt even bear to buy those stuffs for myself. I dont pamper myself easily, oopz, except by eating. Ouch for my mommy cos she sponsored the money and i think i shall volunteer to give her some of the money back.. I wonder how much is left in my bank account now coz it feels like i withdrew money from the ATM quite a few times since the last update. Scared.

I feel like buying the FIR cd i wanna listen to Stella cd and Cyndi.. Plus JJ, plus Zhang Shan Wei.. Whole lot of them lor. I would go bankrupt if i buy them all, so i shall borrow from my friends and burn them.. Haha, those who have them, get them ready.. Heehez..But i will definitely support my Jay Chou.. Heard it from joyce that its going to be released on 3rd Aug. I remember theres something on on 2nd Aug.. A physics prac test? I dont remember. See my calendar now, anyone can freak out because of the pracs and tests and tests and tests and pracs and pracs. Did i say prac and tests?!

:: Complaining isnt that good. Though it helps to relieve stress. Still blessed that i can still be around to complain::

Amazing! I finished by chem revision prac within the time allocated and i actually have time to finish up washing my own apparatus and even managed to help people clear also? Haha.. lijuan and I couldnt believe ourselves =) But well, it was a very easy practical, compared to the jct chem prac!?! Screwed it all up and only got 9/40? Haha so it pulled my overall chem marks by 5% Wow right? Thats a whole grade. But thinking back, the jct chem prac really isnt difficult, its just bound by time constraints and i dint have the time to do qn 2 which was a give away question. People all got19/20 for question 2 but me? Haha, a pathetic 3/20. Hmm, wasnt very sad about it though, sort of predicted that.

My results? Drop lor, by a few marks? Is that considered a drop? Dont know, maybe silly mistakes on my part but not much careless mistakes and all i can say is that chemistry has got the most stringent marking of all. I shall never use pencil in drawing stuffs in chemistry again! They actually dint credit me for my correct diagrams because they were drawn with pencil. Haiz, what can i say? Physics? i supposed has the most lenient marking scheme. But my chemistry improved.. because its the easiest subject to improve on considering it was the lowest for my mct? Alright, anything. Biology is the most amazing subject because it is the only subject that has positive gradient throughout my 1.5 yrs in TJ.. Oopz. just realised my maths has constant negative gradient. Haha dy/dx always smaller than zero! Choy! Can there be minimum turing point!?! Bish me.

Haha, now and then i still recieve his sms, which is kind of pleasant. Dont know, it doesnt really brighten up my whole day but at least i know he hasnt completely disappeared. If so, it will be quite sad.

Ok, i am online now but i should be doing my stuffs because there are quite a fair bit to complete tonight. Ms Wong wants to go through Q particles tomorrow and i haven finish that tutorial. Ok, i know theres no hope of finishing the whole tutorial by tonight but at least i wish to complete till a safe level? I hate to go to tutorials without completing my tutorials because i cant do them during lessons? My brain just go blocked during lessons. And theres a biology revision practical tomorrow and mrs ng expect us to go there prepared ie. read up on previous root plants histology prac and be familiar with that. 3rd, i have phy s paper tomorrow which means i have to do the assignments tonight and it isnt going to be easy. (duh, of course) Look at the time, it is exactly midnight on my wall clock. How is it possible to complete what i need to do? Blame me for sleeping for a whole 3 hrs in the afternoon...

Still, i felt blessed.

:: xin hen xiao, shi jie bian de hen xiao, lian zui mei li de shen lin ye kan bu jian. ::

:: xin hen luan, lu hen duo, wo men dou shi zhe yang zou shi de ::

When the handphone beeps for an sms, i no longer thought it might be you. When i realised its you, i no longer feel the surge of adrenaline. On second thoughts, maybe a little. Just maybe curious and wonder what do you actually have to say to me. This did surprised me.

"hey have you ever tot that i like you or something :X"
Of course i said " Huh!? See my response? Of course not" Haha, i was amused. Not excited though.

Hey, each day i wonder who actually does frequent my blog. Why does the webcounter jump so fast? Maybe it has got its "que dian", ie, this jumps per visit not per visitor. It makes a big difference but it jumps by tens and twenties, who actually does visit my refreshes my blog so often. Puzzled. Hmm?

I ate Sakae Sushi today. $15.90. Ouch, painful. What great indulgdence after exams. How pampered. I felt guilty i spent so much of my mum's money for these few days. Maybe i should learn to be self sufficient. How? Work? Nono, i dont have time when school starts (tmr!?!).. Okie, i shall spend less money from today onwards.

Hmm, i spent $36 on clothes, $269 on a micro hi-fi, $3 dollars on a bag(the other 30 from my birthday gift voucher), $21.50 on a spindle of CD-R, $7.50 on spiderman movie tickets. Ouch ouch, and it has only been for like 3 days after exams? What a spendthrift i feel guilty.

:: Learn to treasure. Be contented ::

Whats meant to be is meant to be.

Sometimes we just cant really control our fate. Its just not the way we want it to be, but it seems pre-planned. But yet, we cant say life is devoid of choices. For many of us, we are blessed with choices in our life? Is it a correct word to use: Blessed? Sometimes, a choice can be a chore.

I have choices in my life. I consider myself being blessed. But at times, there are things that even i want to choose, and there are choices, i am just not give the chance to choose. It just happens and thats it. No more debating about it, no more second chance to it. I may look back, recall the memories, may they be painful or sweet, but they are still just memories. They can fill up my whole life in bits and pieces, but they will never fulfil whats ahead. Whats ahead seem so empty right in front of me till i am afraid. I need a clinging hand. I know there are friends who will be willing to be that clinging hand, i am glad in this context, but its still too scary to abandon the sense of happiness i once experienced and continue in search of the next. Sometimes, its just too overwhelming or tired to just look back on memories or even hold on to them, maybe the little bit of strength left should be use to forget them? But its just so unwilling of me.

I do cherish my life. Much. May i find as much faults in my through my growing years, i still cherish myself for there are still many things that i have not yet done, not yet experience. The feeling of farewell is just too scary at the thought of it. Sometimes this thought just shudders me. What if i am going to leave the world one day, having even not fulfiling my dreams and i have abandon my loved ones and friends? I haven even found my goal in life yet. I know its such a sad case, living day by day without a very specific goal of what i want to do. Not that i have a heck-care attitude in things i do but i haven even organised myself for even my university life? Its still a big question mark. Yep, so i am afraid to leave my life.

Human life is so vulnerable so its precious. So are human emotions. There are bound to be times even a strong person will fall and not have the strength to stand. I feel so lethargic. Its about unconditional love but when you give all out but its just human nature to demand the similiar, maybe not equivalent, amount back. When this doesnt happen, i just feel so lethargic.

Our feelings towards everyone is precious, even not in the case of BGR, we need time to manage our relationships with everyone. Thats why i am glad i have my great bunch of friends. They constitute a great part of my life, second to my family. I really need my friends to fill up the emptiness in my heart now because i just feel so empty. How useless. But i said, i am lethargic now.

:: Hugz. I need more than just that. I know i m greedy. Coz i m naughty. Very ::

The feeling is so sudden. The feeling of emptiness and fear. The feeling of being abandoned and lost. The feeling of sadness and yearning. The feeling of disappointment and farewell.

I dont want you to disappear in my life but yet i have allowed myself to. The background song from Spirited Away, is named Farewell if i am not wrong. Really, farewell. Its this emptiness deep from my heart again. Cry, no i ll try hard not to. The world wont stop spinning just because of one person But do you know that sadness just overwhelms?

I failed.

:: Failing- still failed- ::

Okie, i am re-typing this entry for the 2nd time for the 1st time i typed, it got lost through server error. Though i know the feeling when i am typing this for the 2nd time would be different from the 1st, i do hope i dont forget what i wrote just now. :p

Yeah, what a great day spent at Esther's housewarming lunch cum sleepover! All thanks to the great host esther and Auntie Ogawa! Really felt that we have troubled her because i believed she spent quite alot of time preparing our meals, cleaning up the house, changing the cushion covers, and after we left, she still need to wash the blankets, bedsheets, considering that we each have a blanket and pillow! How great hospitality.

Okie, i shall begin on how a great cook Auntie is. What she served during lunch was so different from a normal housewarming party. There were quiche (those potato sausage cheese mixed together stuffs), salad, spaghetti, sushi, fruits ... ROCKMELON!I have always believed that rockmelon taste nicer than honeydew when the latter already is so nice! No wonder it ROCKS,hey melon. And the sushi was supernice also, considering auntie is the wife of a japanese, of course would have the standard.. =)

So, we spent the afternoon watching TV (oh gosh,i can never understand how they can stay glued to the TV with Cartoon Network. It so lame, boring n duhz, sorry cartoon lovers), then we played UNO cards and UNO Madness. Though they are just normal games, people like Vi, Jessica and Huizhen will never fail to spice up the game. We also celebrated Sinman's and Zub's belated birthday. Auntie baked 2 chilled cheese cake, which were also tasty. Very pretty also. Got the visual appeal =) It was so nice that Zhirong went asking for the recipe, haha typical cooking man.. :p

Oh ya, then we watch Jue Shi Hao B, even though Vi couldnt understand it. We were funny though, we purposely switched it to Cantonese mode even though we couldnt understand it but for the sake that we thought Cantonese sounded much nicer than Mandarin. Afterall, the original voice should be nicer.

When the guys and those not staying over were about to leave, it was already late evening and we walked BJ.(in case you are wondering, he is esther's doggie, Bundle of Joy aka BJ)Auntie performed some tricks with BJ too.. He is so clever! Okie, then i walked him for a period of time, or did he walked me!?! Haha, but it was fun because i have never been that close to a dog before. I felt glad, truely.

Did i mention auntie knows how to make takopachi? I never knew those can be home-made. then i realised the template can be purchased at Takashimaya and i have decided that after A's i shall go and try making them, treat them to yuxin since thats the favourite food! yeah=)

When we returned home, we spent the rest of the evening in esther's room playing Scrabble (wow, intellectual game!!) until auntie called for dinner. Dinner was again another special array of dishes. There were Soba (cold noodles), prawn spaghetti, octopus pickles salad.. In the end, we were so full and bloated that we had to play Zhong Ji Ma to finish the salad and poor Jessica ended up responsible for the dishes because she was so lucky to guess the correct number during the last game! Heehee..

We (Huizhen, Jessica, Yinjie, Yaya and me) then spend the whole night in esther's bedroom gossiping, talking about sensitive issues, crapping, laughing, fortune-telling. Typical girls night but it was fun. We fell asleep at around 4 and woke at around 7. Haha,how light sleepers we are, well trained by JCT.^_^We helped cleared the bed, did i mentioned we each have a pillow and blanket? How pampered! We wrote a thank you card to auntie and then made our way home from Admiralty. How sweet!

Okie, this may seem such a dry entry but it such a happy day. I want to remember happy events. When months have passed, i want to look back at this entry and remember how happy i was on 2nd july.=)

This trip to esther's house made me fantasize alot after seeing auntie ogawa because she is such a typical homemaker.Actually, i dont mind being a homemaker taking great care of my dears. I wouldnt want to abandon my children during young age just to pursue my career. Afterall, what is so bad or narrow about being a perfect homemaker and not be a career woman? I ll chose the former. Its just the power for love from family. If financial situation does allow, how wonderful it would be to read up cookbooks and spring a surprise on the dining table occasionally? How splendid it would be to buy stuffs whenever welike, not for myself, but for the house, for my dears. Trust me, i ll spend a great deal of my husband's money on buying bedsheets every month. I am already doing that now to my parent's money, except that its not every month. I just feel that bedsheets are artpieces, so delicate, so special and it reflects alot about the room.=) How nice it would be to see a clean and cosy house designed by myself everyday. How ideal.. Okie enough of my dreams.. But i do love experimenting with food, cooking.. Haha.. It just add spice to my life. Weird food that i have never eaten before but those that i just come across in magazines.. Hhaa.I do cut them out and keep them.. =) Haha.. Oh.. dreamer..Afterall, whats meant to be is meant to be..

:: Bundle Of Joy, I anticipate my own BOJ::

I have so many things to say today. Mind in a total confusion state, guess its because of the insufficient sleep for the past 5 days. I am glad i mangaged to pull through the 5 days, especially the day before the Biology paper because i dint sleep for the whole night at all. The timetable was so bad that i had a double paper on Tuesday ending at 5+ and i have to prepare for a Bio paper next morning at 8 am. Thats how i end up mugging through the night. I felt ultimately sad and lonely. Not because i think i cant finish studying (its just too common le), not because i was tired but because of the thoughts that everyone is enjoying their sleep but i m mugging alone in the room and nobody to pour my woes into. In the darkness of the night, all i have is the companionship of my limited range of cds and yes933. Lonely night, how apt. Oh well, everything is over le. Announcement: I pulled through!

Hmm, about my performance this jct? Blur blur and blur. When my mum asked me about the paper, whether i know how to ans the question, all i gave for an answer was: I dont know, wait for the results.

While i am so indifferent towards the paper, i see my juniors complaining about jct in their blogs. All i want to say to them is that always give yourself a chance, a leeway. Afterall, its the first major exam in you jc life and you never know wad to expect and what you have to deal with. So, dont worry about saying what question u know how to or what u skipped. Its over le, so always prepared yourself wiht the mindset that jc is different from o'levels. JC syllabus cannot be glanced or scraped through. You have to understand it, grapse it, remember and most importantly apply. Okie, enough of my "theories", good luck everybody on tuesday.

Oh ya i got this sudden urge to go cut my fringe!

" Love is so complicated that you cannot place it in your heart" = you have to show you love
This is frm Doc Ock of Spiderman 2. Oh gosh, it was such a nice show. Initially, i thought it would be some lame action movie with a lame guy swing here and there with his spindle fibres. Oopz, did i say spindle fibres? Haha, its quite a biological term you see, it is something that appears in the cell undergoing cell division. Ooopz, post-exam syndrome. Okie, back to Spiderman 2. So, it turned out to be a movie incorporating romance, action, thrill, humour. Great integration of those elements. Touching at the appropriate times, the secretion of adrenaline whenever the badguy appear... Wow! Thumbs up! This goes to show that a movie can succeed without great stars starring in it, the same goes for Bend It Like Beckham.

Enchanted Ella, the much anticipated movie of the month only opens officially on 29 july!Oh, thats a month away! Good, i can save money. Kudoz!

Tomorrow i am going over to Esther's house for housewarming lunch followed by a sleepover. Its my first sleepover at friend's house especially there are no adults! Yeah. Excited. Xin fen. Hope it will be fun but i do hope i have the energy to sustain whole day because i ll be catching semifinals 2 later on. Czech Republic and Greece. Who will win? I m neutral because i dont know that very well. Not that i know the other teams well,but i really know nuts about these 2 teams competing tonight. Good luck to them.=)Hope it will be an interesting match

:: Life is vulnerable, so its precious::

Not many people online today, guess they are mugging bah? Not like me, i have slacked for the whole day and i am. Dont know. I just feel very lost about my june common test. I dont seem to be familiar with the things i have studied and i dont feel secure with my maths because i dint practise.

Thank you joyce and yinjie for listening to me when i freaked out just now. A freak-out is common before every major exam but this time round is getting too early. 2 days before the actual day and i am panicking. Haiz, goes to show how unprepared i am. I shall go mug again.

Can a miracle happen before me?

I really dont know what to blog about today. I just had a normal mugging day and my usual "know something new about clement everday". Maybe i should record down what are the new discoveries each day and one day i shall give that record for him to see. Oh ya say so much and i havent even point out what's my discovery today! He is a good host, joyce and me felt so "guest-ly" during his home visit and he treated us to Clement-brand lemonade and chocz! Thank you clement even though i know u dont read this.. I think i cant live without my family and friends! Love? Shrugz..

Was explaining to beeshin my theory about blogs. Now that i have come one big round from a private blog to a sort-of public blog, i have come to realise the idea of a blog is rather ironical. First a blog is an online diary and arent diaries supposed to be private and personal? So unless u do set a password to your blog, its rather public and open and maybe it does not serve its purpose as a diary le. Now, i feel rather weird and superficial with my entries. Not to say i dont enjoy people looking at what i have been through each day but it just makes blogging more dry and just about the activites that took place each day. Shrugz. Y the sudden idea?

:: i wun put myself in tt kind of misery. I have brains k? ::

You are Wintergreen.
You are cool and collected. You are very
comfortable with yourself and what you do.
Even if you have a lot of responsiblities, you
always manage to be in control. You are
sometimes laid-back and you are always the
voice of reason. However, others may see you
as lazy or detached sometimes, unable to act
responsibly.
Most Compatible With: Lime


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